There is no way I could deny that I am a blessed person. My life was and never will be perfect but even during the darkest moment I found the way to keep on going ... and that is a blessing. There are so many factors that may be involved but that is not what this is about. This post is mostly to thank everyone who one way or another has brought good things into my life whether it was through tear, smiles or both.
I guess it is time to start...
First of all, I want to start with the part that may not be easy to thank for. I want to thank every person who hurt me. No this is not a welcoming message for people to do it or anything like that lol. Yet it is important to acknowledge that some of the best lessons in life come through difficult situations - for better or for worst- I want to thank the people who underestimated me in any way because you gave me more motivation to keep working and improving myself. Thank you for helping me see that not everyone has a good heart and I have to be more protective with my heart as well as appreciate the ones who are loyal and honest. Thank you for breaking my heart in the worst ways possible because now I know how strong I can be. Thank you for betraying, cheating and lying to me because I am 200% I won't do that to anyone and now more than ever I appreciate the people who are HONEST AND LOYAL to me and you help me reassure what all that are things that I will not put up with under any circumstance.Thank you for showing me the bad and worst things someone can do to anyone because you help me reassure the paths and ways I will not take no matter what. Thanks for showing me the way I won't let myself be. Thank you because you made more human. Thank you for pretending to care because now I know how to identify the people who care about me and the ones who only are looking for drama or gossip.
On the other side...Thank you to the ones who even though may hurt me or break my heart, they were mature enough to realize it and ask for forgiveness. It takes a lot of courage to admit your mistakes to yourself and the person you hurt; and even more to ask for forgiveness. Thank you for leaving your ego and pride on the side and value the link we may have and wanting to recover and improve things. Thank you for showing me that nothing and no one is perfect but if you want a true honest relationship with someone, you will fight against your own demons to make it happen. Thank you for reassuring that when a relationship is worth it, you won't run away when things get tough but instead you stay and fix things. Thank you for not giving up on us - no matter what type of relationship it was...
Now it is time to thank the one I may have hurt... Yes I said it! I am not afraid to admit that I may have hurt people on the way but I never meant to do it. There are people that may know and be aware of the fact they will hurt someone and do it which is repulsive. However I know I hurt people when I isolate myself, when I push them away and I am selfish thinking about "the best" rational decisions and not actually stop and think about what they may want or think about a particular situations. To the ones i've ever hurt I will ask for forgiveness in person as I've always done. Anyways, Thank you for seeing that I was sorry. Thank you for understanding my point of view whether or not it was justifiable. Thank you for your forgiveness and another chance given to me because now I think more about what I say and do...more than I ever did...Also, I want to thank my family for always trying to be there for me. My family may not be perfect whose family is? but even knowing how different we all are; we come together during the good times and even more during the bad ones. I wanna thank my mom because she might have been extra hard on me but I know that was because she had faith on me and wanted to prepare me for life. Thank my dad because he has always motivated me to be as independent as I can be. I wanna thank my uncle because he has been my father figure, my brother, my friend ...He has always been there by my side during the most life changing moments I've gone through so far. Thank you to the rest of my family from my mom and father side because each one on their own way have given me lessons I will never forget.
Finally, people say that the closest- best friends are the family we choose. I don't have tons of friends but they are the best type of friend someone can ask for. I can count them with just one had who I know are true friends for me. I want to thank you guys for trying to be there for me as much as possible. Thank you for being HONEST AND LOYAL because you told me what I need to hear and not only what "wanted to hear" . Thank you for showing me you care through simple or big gestures. Because as soon as you find out something is up, you find the way to be there and make sure I know you are there for me when I need it. Thank you for putting yourself in my shoes whether it was easy or not. Thank you for understand who I am and even though I can be difficult at times you love and care of me as a whole package.
