29 dic 2016

Caja de Pandora 2016

No se si sera el cansancio. Nose si sera la fecha o que hoy perdi el pudor o miedo. Ok no! Miedo lo tengo en caso esta persona vea el post. Pero bueno aveces es bueno sacarse lo que uno lleva adentro de alguna manera y la mía es escribir. No dire nombres ni detalles  super íntimos - a nadie le interesa-... Pero, hoy confieso me había vuelto a ilusionar .. oh my! :O Si es con alguien que conozco hace casi 11 anos. Con quien pase muchas cosas. Quien me gusto y fue al único que le dije " Me gustas pero no quiero que me digas nada al respecto. Solo quería que lo sepas. Se que somos amigos y solo seremos eso" Luego sale corriendo jajaja hey tenia 15 anos ... Cada uno siguió su vida...Hemos pasado por buenas y malas, momentos super cercanos y alejados. Lo he visto muerto de amor por alguna chica, casi al borde de las lagrimas porque le han roto el corazón. Su calidad humana es hermosa aunque no es perfecto. Hay un par de cositas que si me caen en la punta de hígado pero saben...Me encanta ese paquete completo jajajaj
Jamas pense que el sentimiento volvería... ósea no soy consiente si en algún momento desapareció pues siempre tuve muy claro que el me veía como su amiga , mejor amiga, hermana que se yo..mas nada por ello ese feeling fue guardado en un baúl. Siempre fue una persona sumamente importante para mi. Siempre me puse contenta con cada logro suyo, con verlo feliz, enamorado. Su felicidad me hacia feliz así la vea desde lejos.
Hoy es un tanto extraño saber que siento por esta persona y al mismo tiempo me llena de temor el se de cuenta pues nose que llegaría a pensar... si le alegraría o seria una mala noticia para el... Soy consciente que el me ve solo como amiga, su mejor amiga o algo parecido. Que su corazón aun esta con asuntos pendientes. Que tal vez jamas me vea como algo mas. Y a pesar que no es mi ideal - eso es mas que obvio- siempre respetare eso a menos que el me demuestre lo contrario...Nose si algún día se lo dire, nose si leerá esto..no se que depare el futuro para ambos ...si seguiremos siendo amigos, si seremos extraños o si por lo contrario de alguna manera el Cosmos hace que nos demos una oportunidad. Lo único que se es que siempre querré su felicidad sea o no parte de su vida sin importar el vinculo que nos una...
Por ahora no me puedo dejar sentir mas pues el presente no es muy halagador. Pero creanme que si el me dice que toma el riesgo, le daría la mano y lo mejor de mi para hacerlo feliz... Solo el sera el que termine de abrir esa puerta, la rendija la deje yo...El siguiente paso lo da EL sino quedara como un lindo recuerdo y nada mas...

26 dic 2016

Falling falling

Falling in love the most beautiful and horrible thing we all go through at some point in our lives. A lot of us take our time when we do so because we know playing with people/our hearts is the last thing we want. Heartaches are the worst! Therefore, be honest and avoid jumping from relationship to relationship just because you don't know how to be alone.
Personally, I don't fall for someone easily but when I do it , I fall fast and hard!  The "funny thing" is that I will not explore the feeling or confess it unless I see the other person feeling the same way - in some level-
I do not have a type of man. However, what I look in him is to be hardworking, HONEST, funny and romantic. I love when the man conquers your heart and confess his feelings for you - old fashion - I don't ask for much, do I? lol I believe that is kind of the general requirements for a good partner...the rest is putting the work and effort to make things function and find ways to fix whatever that needs to be adjusted. I believe in this instead of just breaking up because you have different points of view or have a few problems.
I still believe that true love conquers it all.. I know I know I may sound naive but thats the way I am. I never said it would be easy ! Hey nothing that it's worth it comes easy. For example, If I found someone worth it, I would do anything in my power to make it work. I would 'fight" any obstacle whether it is distance, people, situations. Yes I said distance. I would have a long distance relationship  only with the right person, making things clear and having a high level of communication. I know it would be terrifying since I had a bad experience in the past but if that person is THAT AMAZING, I would consider it otherwise I will pass without hesitation.
Now, I am not about looking for someone for a "while". I want a partner, companionship ...someone who I can build an empire-home with. For some I may be too young to think this way but it is who I am whether you like it or not. I don't date just because I don't wanna be alone. I date when I am actually interested in someone and see a future with them.
On the other hand, I am also aware of what I bring to the table. Love is not only about "receiving" but about "giving". I am the type of parter who is supportive, loyal and a little over protective - motherly-. I will be the first one to cheer up any dream but also let you know when you are making the wrong decision even though you will be the one with the last word. I want to be not only your partner but your friend.
Believe I will give my all to my love but if I feel he is not on the same path I would be the first one to let him go and be happy on his own. I may make sacrifices when I am inlove but I would never beg someone  to be part of my life.

25 dic 2016

Revelaciones PE 2016

Este 2016 ha estado lleno de experiencias mágicamente raras. Las cosas suceden cuando menos las esperas desde "vómitos verbales" hasta sorpresas inexplicables. Una vez más me doy cuenta que la mente del ser humano viaja a la velocidad de la luz. Si tienes una experiencia agradable pues soñaras como nunca. Y si por el contrario los sucesos son negativos pues pensarás en escenarios pesimistas y un tanto realistas que te ayuden a confrontar aquello que interrumpe tus teorías sobre el futuro.
Este ano empezó con retos personales que pusieron en jaque mi forma de ser y pensar en muchos aspectos. Soy de las personas que odia las confrontaciones - peleas o cosas parecidas y por ende mi reacción siempre sera poner distancia. Sin embargo, si hay cosas que aclarar estoy 200% dispuesta de encontrar aquella respuesta que lleve a un acuerdo en que todas las partes se sientan cómodas.
Hoy por hoy estoy segura de quien soy. Se que tengo una que otra virtud y también un carácter un poco difícil y estricto. Se que lucho a muerte por los que amo y los pongo como prioridad. Que soy capaz de sacrificar mi felicidad por ellos porque para mi eso es amor. Velar por la felicidad de tu ser amado ( familiar, pareja, amigos) antes de la tuya siempre y cuando no vaya en contra de tu bienestar humano.
Hoy no tengo dudas de que siento por cada persona y que quiero- como quiero que sea el vinculo-. Luchare por ser feliz así las personas no esten desacuerdo con mi forma de actuar pero siempre con respeto. Tengo metas que cumplir pero no lo hare a la loca sino dando un paso a la vez para así poder tener una base segura y edificar sobre ello los éxitos y sean duraderos.
Hoy apechugo ante la idea que soy un hígado con patas y a la vez temerosa con ciertos asuntos. Se que no me dejo de nadie y se me sale el Inca cuando me intentan pisotear. Que me estreso muy fácil y es porque a mi me importan las cosas no como otras personas que se les hace fácil romper vínculos con gente que se suponen aman/quieren. Yo no! Yo la sufro, la lucho hasta el final PERO NO RUEGO! Los vaivenes no van conmigo. Si una persona no toma la decision de estar o no como parte de mi vida, yo no tengo miedo de hacerlo y tomar una decision radical...Por el contrario si una persona me demuestra que luchara por ser parte de mi vida, créeme eso es valorado de una manera increíble y dare todo de mi para que ese vinculo sea cuidado lo mas posible
Esta soy yo compleja y sencilla a la vez. Creciendo mas cada día y tratando de encontrar la forma de crecer como ser humano. Porque quiero ser la mejor version de mi para los que amo así sea un poco rara o ingrata. Siempre intentare demostrar lo que siento por cada uno de ellos ya que nadie sabe que depare el futuro.
Si alguno de ustedes se pregunta que siento por ti o que pieza juegas en mi vida...pregunten y les sere lo mas sincera que pueda...Se que puedo ser extraña y tener actitudes un tanto confusas o no lo demuestro mucho por inseguridad que me refleja la otra persona... pero tengan algo claro Si te digo que eres importante... créelo ERES IMPORTANTE! Solo tengo consideraciones o demostraciones de afecto con muy MUY pocas personas -no con cualquiera- a comparación de otras personas.
Hoy lucho por mi!, por mi amor (ok sigo soltera pero cuando lo tenga lo hare JAJAJA), por mi familia, por mis amigos verdaderos.. Lucho por mi mundo, por ser sinceramente y completamente feliz así se pongan o existan miles de obstáculos (distancias, personas, situaciones)...
Hoy elijo mi felicidad!

8 nov 2016

Treat you Better

I won't lie to you I know she's just not right for you and you can tell me if I'm off But I see it on your face When you say that she's the one that you want And you're spending all your time
In this wrong situation And anytime you want it to stop
I know I can treat you better than she can Tell me why are we wasting time On all your wasted crying When you should be with me instead I know I can treat you better
Better than she can 
I'll stop time for you The second you say you'd like me too I just wanna give you the loving that you're missing
Baby, just to wake up with you Would be everything I need and this could be so different Tell me what you want to do
Give me a sign  Take my hand, we'll be fine Promise I won't let you down
Just know that you don't Have to do this alone
Promise I'll never let you down

16 oct 2016

Invade My Privacy

1. Did you wake up cranky? No

2. Would you date an 18-year-old at you’r current age? Not a chance lol
3. Do you prefer to be friends with girls or boys? Boys... less drama -  I got to admit
4. Would you ever smile at a stranger? yes lol
5. Can you commit to one person? TOTALLY! I've always been faithful in my pass relationships
6. How do you look right now? I'm in my pjs so you can imagine lol
7. What exactly are you wearing right now? pjs
8. How often do you listen to music? Every Day!
9. Do you wear jeans or sweats more? Sweats
10. Do you think you’r life will change dramatically before 2017? Not really
11. Are you a social or  an antisocial person? Both
12. If the person you like say they like someone else, what would you say? Ok
13. Are you good at hiding your feelings? I am awesome doing that thats why you gotta ask or you will never find out what I truly feel
14. Can you drive a stick shift? Not the best lol
15. Do you care if people talk badly about you? Depending who it is
16. Are you going out of town soon? I work in the city so I do lol but gotta take a trip soon too
17. When was the last time you cried? A week or so ago
18. Have you ever liked someone you didnt expect to? Yes  >_< lol
19. If you could change your eyecolor? would you? I wouldn't I can always wear contacts lol
20. Name something you have to do tomorrow? Work =D lol

4 ago 2016

Make a Choce

My heart is not a game so stop playing.
Remember if you play with fire, you can end up burn

I know that when I heart decides to forget, there is nothing that will change it.
Don't make it end ... you will end up burn.

When the sun comes out, I will only think of  party and alcohol.
It will hurt you to know that you don't have control.
Tell me... If i leave, will it hurt you?

Make up your mind...you still have time 

Don't leave it for later. I'm not down for games... Tell me what we gonna do...
It's time for you to let go of your pride. It's getting late and you can lose me.
I'm gonna live my life. There is no one to stop me.
There are no wound and can't be healed.

No one like you but like me you will never find another.
Even if you say you can get over me, how will your erase my kisses from your lips?







17 jul 2016

The Story

All of these lines across my face Tell you the story of who I am so many stories of where I've been And how I got to where I am But these stories don't mean anything When you've got no one to tell them to It's true... I was made for you
I climbed across the mountain tops Swam all across the ocean blue I crossed all the lines and I broke all the rules But baby I broke them all for you Because even when I was flat broke
You made me feel like a million bucks You do and I was made for you
You see the smile that's on my mouth It's hiding the words that don't come out And all of my friends who think that I'm blessed They don't know my head is a mess No, they don't know who I really am And they don't know what I've been through like you do And I was made for you...

19 jun 2016

I Heard

I heard that you have a new one to touch your skin that you want to convince any idiot
That you and me....are past

I heard that I am the bad one and whole world believes you that you are better since you stopped seeing me Happier with someone else near you

Who are you trying to lie to? You know well that you are my other half

Forget that loser And repeat to her that I am better That you are not faithful To her That you are my only, my only love

Say goodbye to that loser That (she) imagines I no longer exist Make it clear to her that even if he keeps trying No you won't love him

The truth is that I miss you a lot You know it...

You will come back... I am sure that you will come back You are with her by pure comfort Being bored into her arms

21 may 2016

It was you..

It was you
you were intermittent and melancholy
I accepted it all because I loved you 
See you coming was my light and see leave was like the 

Needless to say so many things. You learn to love the thorns or don’t accept roses. I never lied to you or tried to play you.  Gray clouds are part of the landscape. Don’t look at me that way because you are the only one to blame. 

It was way too easy to touch the sky for the first time when the kisses were the starting engine. It turned on the light that today may be disappearing. That’s how love disguises itself for its convenience. Accepting everything without questions and leaving to time the final blow. What is left is to keep trying…Say it! If there is someone to blame, it’s you…
I’m in between who I am and who you want me to be. Wishing I could wake up. Nothing left to say, you just have to fight.

It has been always been you…

3 abr 2016

Without You...

With out you, everything is normal. Life goes on. The ground under my feet won't crumble. Nothing will turn upside-down.

 I know I can fall inlove again. Life without your kisses and get over you. But don't get it twisted, how i feel about you is perfect. I hope you never leave my life and my side. 
 
I know that without you life won't stop. The sun keeps shining. I can live without but I don't wanna try it

My happiness with turn into a melancholic melody. Everyday I will write about how it would be every night without you. 
My world feel empty and cold. I probably will cry and be sad but I am sure I will not die. Probably I would get over you as time pass by. 

Even though I know my theory, I will no risky and be without you...






27 mar 2016

ExtraordinaryOil VoxBox

A great gift  (sample) from influenster and L'Oréal! Thank you for picking me and introduce me to a great product. Definitely worth every penny !!!. I will buy this product without hesitation. If you have dry or damage hair, you MUST try this!!!

20 mar 2016

You're inlove With Me

If it is true that you are prohibited 
My kisses are wounds that hurt your heart
Is it true that because of my laugh, you get confused while you touch her who you call now "your love"
If in silence, you regret the times you lie to her to disguise your betrayal 
if my hands make you free every time you touch them
There is nothing left to say

Close your eyes and look to the sky and wish to flyaway to me Yell my name to the wind and ask the destiny to bring you to me.
Your face shows it, your smile shows that you’re still in love with me

If I live in your thoughts and the feeling is bigger that the one who swear to her that time


If you mouth water when you see me.. There is nothing left to say

6 mar 2016

I know I will love you

¿Who are you, the one that cries in silence? 
¿who are you, the one that comes from far away? 
Tired of loving, tired of waiting  for a little peace in love wars
Who sees you, don't know your story 
¿who are you? I know

I know I'll love you like once I loved
I never got tired of waiting
I know who are you 
I never forget you 
I never got tired of waiting for you and your love till that day...and the day is now

Who says "good bye" forgets that time transform " no" in silence
Love's strength is made of movement
Loving is making each moment eternal 
Now I know that I walked every way for you...


20 feb 2016

17 Random Questions Tag

1. HOW DID YOU GET YOUR YOUTUBE USER NAME?  Taffy's world lol 

2. IF YOU COULD CHANGE YOUR NAME TO ANYTHING, WHAT WOULD IT BE AND WHY? Candela ... I kind of like it lol 

3. IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME AND GIVE YOUR YOUNGER SELF ADVICE, WHAT WOULD IT BE AND WHY? Be brutally honest on how you feel about everything and everyone.

4. HOW OLD WERE YOU WHEN YOU FIRST LEARNED TO BLOW A BUBBLEGUM BUBBLE? I don't know lol

5. WHAT DID YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU WERE LITTLE? A doctor and a mom.

6. WHAT DO YOU ORDER AT STARBUCKS? Mocha frap

7. WHAT'S THE HARDEST YOU EVER LAUGHED? I laugh a lot lol

8. IF YOU COULD PLAY ANY MUSICAL INSTRUMENT, WHICH WOULD IT BE AND WHY? a guitar ! I think is sweet and sexy.

9. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE THING TO DO WHEN YOUR UPSET? listen to music and go for a walk.

10. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE MOVIE? I don't have one.

11. WHAT'S ONE FOOD YOU CAN NOT LIVE WITHOUT? Peruvian food duh!

12. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE DESSERT? any lol

13. FAVORITE PIZZA TOPPING? pepperoni, pepper and mushrooms.

14. WOULD YOU RATHER HAVE THE SUPERPOWER TO READ MINDS, OR THE SUPERPOWER TO BE INVISIBLE? Read minds.

15. WHAT DID YOU DO FOR YOUR LAST BIRTHDAY? I went out and shopping day XD

16. IF YOU HAD ONE PERSONAL "SELFISH" WISH, WHAT WOULD IT BE AND WHY? I don't know I will keep it to myself so it comes true lol

17. IF YOU WERE A POKEMON WHAT WOULD YOU BE CALLED? WHAT WOULD YOU LOOK LIKE? candemor lol 

6 feb 2016

Waiting for You

You said that you'd never hurt me Be the band-aid when I bleed But I guess that that band-aid was all made of paper 'Cause you never stuck to me And you say that you conquered the lion
Without even trying' But she only gets stronger She only bites harder and I only die fighting
You can run But you know that I know just what you've done  Save those words for one on one
So when the lights go down And the sun hits ground You should know that I won't back down (I'll be waitin' for you) Knuckles out And the guard in my mouth
When you're hungry for the next round (I'll be waitin' for you)
Yeah, don't take things too personal But you made shit personal Talkin' 'bout my bad habits
Man, fuck my bad habits Don't act like you got non
Got my name in your mouth, forgive me when I knock it out I love it when you talk about me just 'cause you don't know yourself My jabs go go for broke, your teeth is on the floor Thirty million people watchin', do you still want more? Say gracious, gon' get it, I am winnin' but you isn'tCall your dentist 'cause I meant this, I don't see no competitionGoin' wild, Mikey Tyson, born a fighter, I will triumph Bitch I thought you knew I was comin' for your title

12 ene 2016

Revival

I dive into the future But I'm blinded by the sun I'm reborn in every moment So who knows what I'll become

I feel like I've awakened lately The chains around me are finally breaking I've been under self-restoration I'm becoming my own salvation Showing up, no more hiding The light inside me is bursting, shining It's my time to butterfly

What I've learned is so vital More than just survivalThis is my revival
This is a revival

I'll walk through the fire, I'll begin again I'll burn through my skin Cause I, cause I wanna feel it
Reaching for the truth, not afraid to lose What shattered through me like a rifle was a revival I admit, it's been painful, But I'll be honest, I'm grateful

It's my time to realize

What I've learned is so vital More than just survival This is my revival

This won't take too long, you'll see I'm just trying get to me, What shattered through me like a rifle was a revival

What I've learned is so vital More than just survival This is my revival, This is a revival

3 ene 2016

Nothing like us

Lately I've been thinking,thinking about what we hadAnd I know it was hard, it was all that we knew. Have you been drinking, to take all the pain away? I wish that I could give you what you deserve
'Cause nothing can ever, ever replace you Nothing can make me feel like you do. You know there's no one, I can relate to I know we won't find a love that's so true
There's nothing like us There's nothing like you and me Together through the storm There's nothing like us There's nothing like you for me, together
I gave you everything babe Well, everything I had to give Boy, why would you push me away?
Lost in confusion, like an illusion You know I'm used to making your day But that is the past now, we didn't last now I guess that this is meant to be
Tell me, was it worth it? We were so perfect But baby I just want you to see There's nothing like us There's nothing like you and me Together through the storm There's nothing like us
There's nothing like you and me, together