12 abr 2015

Second Chance

There are times when we want to say many things but cant put them into words. Each time we can't say what we feel, we end up speechless. Maybe it is best. Sometimes a gesture can be clearer than a word. Gestures are more stubborn than words. You can close your mouth, but mute your body is almost impossible. with a few exceptions. At the time when you reach the point of no return, the only left thing to do to is to speak up... scream how you feel.Sometimes gestures are so clear that leave us speechless ...almost with open mouths because what you least expected is happening...


When you can not say what you feel, you are stuck ...almost frozen, paralyzed, you can not advance. Often people talk about moving on right? Not to give up ... Yet it is not easy for everyone  Sometimes we do not have much strength. Actually, we do not expect neither too much nor too little, we no longer expect. How everything changed, right? Because before we wanted something for the rest of our lives... Now we are satisfied just with one more time, with another chance... the last one...
They say life is made up of second chances. Leave the past behind and even more important, both parties should learn to accept and take it into account. Whatever the reason that separated you the first time, this issue must be overcome. it should never be used as a weapon to hurt the other in an argument. Make peace with the past before you leaving it behind is the key otherwise it could be like a ghost and haunt you. If you take away that power addressing the concerns that both may have, no one can hide behind the breaker new link. What's left is only lessons learned, boundaries you both set and the love and strength to work and improve a relationship day by day.
A second opportunity is not to pick up things where they were left of a few months, days or years ago and continue as if nothing happened. In this new opportunity, both should take the time to recognize, falling in and accepted, remember that there is already a precedent and that makes a difference with any other relationship that could had begun with another person.
When given a second chance is necessary for both parties to work on changes that they are going through. The person receiving the second chance  should this time shown himself/herself as he/she really is without pride, claims or arrogant attitudes waiting the other side will accept everything that comes now. The important thing is to show that if there is something that should be worked on, then they will put the effort into it, to improve as a person and improve the relationship.
It is important to recognize that who you are giving the second chance to is someone who fulfills two basic requirements, love and maturity to accept. If you got a second chance, recognize these characteristics in your partner and tell him/her. It is important that the other side knows that you value the fact to be back together.






10 abr 2015

50 Random Things about Me

I tried to think about some random things about me that I haven't shared yet... Maybe I did, maybe I didn't...shall see, right lol
  1. When I eat pineapple as a fruit or juice, it makes my tongue feel itchy lol
  2. I love to give perfumes as a gift whether it is to woman or man. I select them based whether or not the scent remind me of that particular person o I think it will be good for them. Yet some people get the wrong message about this -.-
  3. I already have picked up the first names for my future kids ( one for a girl ,one for a boy) because my mother chose them.
  4. I am a scary cat but I am very intrigue by all the paranormal stuff and anything related to it. 
  5. I do not like soup.
  6. I have at least 3 near death experiences lol I guess not my time right? haha
  7. I never want to try to catch the brides bouquet but the only time I actually wanted to be there ( in the group of ladies) I caught it without even trying lmao... next to get married ( in my family) who knows but there are still some steps before it lol
  8. I cannot concentrate unless my room or home is organized as much as possible.
  9. I love to be surround by friends as much as I love my alone time. Same goes to I love to be in a relationship but also love to be single. 
  10. I cannot understand the people who jump from one relationship to another like can't you just be alone and enjoy your own company that you need to start something new the next day?. I believe everyone need some time to processed whatever they lived in the relationship that just ended, learned from their mistakes and his/hers parents so you avoid some patterns and can give a true chance to the next person.
  11. I have never/ will never  cheat on someone. I add it in this list because nowadays people cheat like its nothing -.-. Seriously? WTH! have some respect for the person you are with and yourself.!
  12. The smell of beetroot makes me nauseous.
  13. I dislike cooked tomatoes but I love them in salads lol
  14. When someone I care forgets about my birthday I feel like my heart is been ripped out of my chest... no im not dramatic is sensitive lol thats one of the few things that i take my time to forget and forgive.
  15. So far I haven't getting back together with an ex... I guess if I ever do it, the cards will be on the table. I would have enough reasons to make that decision ... either way only one name come to mind lol
  16. I don't get electronic music .. idk I can't dance or understand it -.- I need lyrics! lol
  17. I LOVE cheese yet now I am lactose intolerant -.- I seriously don't know what happened :( I used to eat cheese like it was chocolate and not I can't T.T its so sad!
  18. I love the beach but I can't swim :(
  19. I am not afraid of dying but the pain I may feel or not before it.
  20. I hate clowns and furbys :(
  21. Every time I use and elevator, I start to breath slowly cuz I am afraid to get stuck in one.
  22. One of the most random and funniest thing that I have gone through with one of my exes mom is when she said to me :" Im like honey, when you try me you will not wanna let go" lol I seriously did not know how to react !
  23. One tradition I have with one of my closest friend (last couple of year) is that every new years eve we go to a carnaval of good wishes and get some good luck charms for the new year lol
  24. When I was 13, I had a my "model" phase lol I was modeling during that summer after that I was over it xD
  25. I love to do crosswords ( in Spanish)... goal: finish one completely on my own.
  26. I love guitars and I even own one but I still don't know how to play :(
  27. I always wanted to be a ballet dancer.
  28. I had a groupie moment back in high school.
  29. No one knows my weakest spot... Not gonna reveal it now .. duh!
  30. I know I have some stalker ( confused fans) ;) internationally lmao 
  31. I used to steal candy from my grandma for my grandpa lol He was diabetic but loved candy so I would fin the way to get at least 2 or 3 eery week .. it was our secret. 
  32. Cant nap because if I do, I wake up with a headache.
  33. Some of my most realistic dreams have come true u.u scary!!!
  34. Favorite scents: jasmine, cinnamon and vanilla.
  35. I had short hair only when I was 6 and 24 XD ...need to change the game more often lol
  36. when it comes to gifts and someone says "surprise me : checkmate " Im the worst I rather them to give me option and I choose what to give based on them lol
  37. I have a sweet tooth lol I always keep any type of candy with me lol
  38. Every time I clean I put some music on.....Peruvian style lol 
  39. I tend to be territorial with the ones I care the most (Can count them in one hand)
  40. I'm good writing letters...friendship -romance... Plus I will always keep the letters that my loves ones (friends, relatives, exs)have gave me so far. <3 
  41. I have those moment when "I can't wait to have my own family (husband, my baby and our relatives).
  42. I can't see people fighting because I'll have a panic attack... hate violence .... ( sports-fighting thats a different situation).
  43. I wanted to learn kickboxing but my dad told me that sport was too manly -.-... at some point I will though lol
  44. I tend to push people away without noticing ... improving that!
  45. Every time I go to Peru I bring so many treats that I feel I bring a supermarket with me lol
  46. Back in high school, I had my nerd time lol I was practically living in the library lol
  47. 80% of my Instragram its food, drink or quotes instead of selfies " like normal people" lol
  48. I am not really attracted to the color pink lol
  49. If a person goes to my blacklist, it is very difficult to get out of it u.u
  50. I HATE being call "mami" by strangers, friends, guys , girl friends, relatives. The only people allow to do that are my uncle (always call me like that- he's like my father ) and my future kids lol

16 mar 2015

Resolutions 2015

Decided to write this post after one of my closest friends was bugging me for a while ok ok advising I should write about it so when the year ends I have a checklist to mark. Also, according to her it help me to to have the eyes "on the price" and motivate me along the way... I know its kinda late but oh well if you want to improve something you can do it all year long. It doesn't have to be January 1st lol ... so here is my list ;)
  1. Be more patient with everyone but particularly with some people.
  2. Keep myself motivated to get closer to my goal when it comes to my career
  3. Workout more and watch what I eat.. keep it healthy lol
  4. Open up my heart for real even if that mean fall involve again no matter if I already know the person or not.. never been afraid to never will. 
  5. When it comes to the past, remember only the good times and the lessons learn ... Let go od the grudges.
  6. Not only excuse but actually forgive people... yet only give a chance to the ones who deserve it. 
  7. Be a good role model for my god daughters.
  8. Try to put myself on the other shoes before taking a decision or judgement
  9. Try not to be so drastic when I take decision unless I reach that limit.
  10. Say 'good bye' when it needs to be said as well as "hello" or "hello again"
  11. Be more organize 
  12. Save more money ! lol Hey, its never a bad thing hahaha
  13. Try to learn how to live day by day even though I'm a control freak in certain aspects of my life. 
  14. Be more aware of what I want, what I need, what I wish... they are not the same ;)
  15. Be more open to listen but also to say what I feel and think in a respectful way.

23 feb 2015

A Night of Revelations


Some of these confessions people may know them or not.. here they are.. a little more about me ...

     
  1. There will always be a few people ( counted with one hand) that no matter what they do I will forgive them. Giving them another chance, the chance to be part of my life is up to them and what they do to show me they actually wanna be part of it. Forgiving someone doesn't always mean you will have that people around you.
  2. I believe in true love and that it never dies/ends.
  3. Favorite flowers: red roses or roses, tulips and orchids.
  4. I adapt to change pretty easily but I do not enjoy it. 
  5. I do what it needs to be done whether I am happy and agree with it or sad/ broken hearted and don't agree in every aspect - personal, family and professional-
  6. I love to love and be loved.
  7. I always appreciate every single thing that people do to show me they care and love me whether its something big or a little tiny gesture even more when it involves getting out of their comfort zone.
  8. I am a hopeless romantic. LOVE this little gestures letters, love letter, flowers all that corny stuff lol
  9. I respect someone who is loyal and honest because it is very difficult to find that on a friend and/or partner.
  10. I may not be as expressive as other women but I have a big caring heart and also sensitive one.
  11. I like when people are direct yet respectful. I don't like to waste time or play with someone feelings ( friendship-romannce). 
  12. Sometimes I tend to be radical and impulsive when I take decisions in my personal life. Yet I am mature enough to admit my mistakes and make something about it to change and improve te situation. Not gonna be playing games... ignoring games and stuff.. ignore me and you won't hear from me.. not going to be chasing anyone.
  13. I know what I want in every aspect of my life not going to settle for less than what I deserve and bring to the table. 
  14. I only have 4 regrets even though I am 24 lol... too many too few who knows .. it is what it is...
  15. I tend to be a little protective- jealous with the people I love the most.
  16. Love cuddling and kisses XD from the person I love ( when I am in-love)
  17. I find very interesting paranormal stuff and anything related to it yet I am scary cat lol don't judge xD
  18. I don't make promises unless I know I give my all to fulfill them.
  19. I don't share my deepest feelings right away or easily but when I express them you can tell its true.
  20. I hate crying infant of someone no matter who it is... if you ever see me cry it is because I reached my limit and I trust you with all I got.
  21. Other careers I would have loved to study : makeup artist, medicine, gastronomy, criminal justice.
  22. When I care about someone ( friendship-romance), I will be there though thick and thin till the point of no return.
  23. I love perfumes, shoes and bags lol.
  24. I never know what to give to anyone when it comes to gifts. So when I gotta do it, I ask ... I am in big trouble when people say "surprise me" xD cuz I choose based on my likes-their likes lmao not always works lol.

16 ene 2015

Music: Touch you heart or liver?


Music is a big part of peoples lives inkling myself. People have used music to express feelings and thoughts. Music can be your best company to celebrate great news, to cry with after that situation that broke your heart or maybe just to relax yourself after something mentally/emotionally stressful. I am pretty sure we have those moments when lyric fit our emotions perfectly for better or for worst. Moments when the lyrics brought us to that happy or sad moment… Just reminds us of someone bring up a smile or tear.... here my personal list of music that I could dedicate to particular group of people AND/OR that just reminds me of them. Don’t judge. If you don't want to hear or read just click the X and problem solve.... on the other side you are welcome to try and maybe may like some of the songs lol 
P.D the titles for the ex are related to another post lol Do not take the lyrics so literal at least not all of them you will figure it out lol I hope… XD fingers crossed



About Myself:
  • Master piece by Jessie J
  • You don't really know me by Jessie J
  • Been Lying by Rita Ora
  • Inevitable by Samo
  • Warrior by Demi Lovato
  •  Perfect by Pink
  •  Roar by Katy Perry
  • Lesson Learned by Carrie Underwood
  • My way by Frank Sinatra
  • Carpe Diem by Aliados
  • Si Yo Muero by Romeo Santos
  • Anything but Ordinary by Avril Lavigne
  • Cuando pienses en volver by Pedro Suarez Vertiz
  •  If you want me by Katy Perry
  • Hush Hush by Pussycatdolls
  • Awake and Alive by Skillet
  • Believe in me by Demi Lovato
  • Dark horse by Katy Perry feat juicy J
  • Never enough by Five Finger Death Punch
  • Scars by Paparoach
  • Stronger by Britney Spears
  • What if by Simple plan
  • Who you are by Jessie J
  • If you want my love by JLo 

Ex " The player":
  • Soy mucho para ti by Tilsa Lozano
  • Walk Away by Five Finger Death Punch
  • Better off by Sara Evans
  • Alone by Sara Evans
  • If I were a boy by Beyonce
  • Soberbio by Romeo


Ex "The boomerang / Too good to be true"- A1
  • The one that got away by Katy Perry
  • Eres mia by Romeo Santos
  • Get away by Jessie J
  • Slow me down by Sara Evans
  • Dile a ella by Victor Manuel
  • Y llegaste tu by Sin Bandera
  • Donde Hubo fuego by Daddy Yankee
  • Que se Mueran by Romeo Santos
  •  I still believe by Breanda Star
  • Rude by Magic
  • Agarra mi Mano by Sean Paul
  • Tratar de estar mejor by Diego Torres
  • Estes en donde estes by Ha-ash
  • Kilometers by Sin Bandera


Ex: "Almost the One" - A2:
  • Said too much by Jessie J
  • I still believe by Brenda Star
  • Ignorance by Paramore
  • Young and sexy by Rita Ora
  • Hot and cold by Katy Perry
  • The heart wants what it wants by Selena Gomez
  • Break your heart right back by Ariana Grande
  • The one by Theory of a Deadman
  • Always by Killswitch Engage
  • Love and war by Tamar Braxton
  • Stay and Fight by Tamar Braxton
  • Warrior by Demi Lovato
  • Skyscraper by Demi Lovato
  • Walk away by Five Finger Death Punch
  • 100 ways to hate by Five Finger Death Punch
  • Snuff by Slipknot
  • Your love is a lie by Simple Plan
  • You suck at love by Simple Plan
  • Running away by Hoobastank
  • FU by Miley Cyrus
  • Let me go by Avril Lavigne and Chad Kroeger
  • What goes around comes around by Justin Timberlake
  • Everybody knows by Dustin Tavella
  • Starts with Goodbye – Carrie Underwood
  • A little bit stronger by Sara Evans
  • Slow me down by Sara Evans
  • Better off by Sara Evans
  • Been done that by Luke Bryan
  • Better than Me by Hinder
  • Black widow by Iggy Azalea ft Rita Ora
  •  Decidiste dejarme by Camila
  • Every Lie by Darkest Days
  • Gone by Darkest Days
  • Hot by Avril Lavigne
  • If I were a boy by Beyonce
  • It takes two by Katy Perry
  • Still into you by Paramore
  • Still worth fighting for by Darkest Days
  • All you had to do was stay by Taylor Swift
  • Love me by Katy Perry
  •  I wish you would by Taylor Swift
  • When I said goodbye by Mayer Hawthorne
  • Nothing like us by Justin Bieber
  • Hush hush by Avril Lavigne
  • Really don’t care by Demi Lovato
  • In Case by Demi Lovato
  • Lonely again by NeYO
  • Love will remember by Selena Gomez
  • White Nights by Scar the Martyr
  • Start again by R.E.D
  • Talked to me by Lauren Aquilina
  • Try by Pink
  • On the line by Demi Lovato and Jonas Brother

The next Love (from past, preset, future hey who knows lol):
  • Unconditionally by Katy Perry
  • Always by Killswitch Engage
  • Say ok by Vanessa Hudgens
  • What do you want from me by Pink
  • The Reason by Hoobastank
  • I’d come for you by Nickelback
  • Gotta be somebody by Nickelback
  • If you had my love by JLo
  •  Made in the US by Demi Lovato
  • Gracias a ti by Carlos Rivera
  • Come undone by The Darkest Days
  • I LuhYa Papi by JLo ft French Montana
  • Single Ladies by Beyonce lmao ( maybe not a ring right away but commit -.-)
  •  Change your life by Iggy Azalea
  • As long as you love me by Justin Bieber
  • Wont let you go by Avril Lavigne
  • Happy together by simple plan
  • Mamas Song by Carrie Underwood
  • Quitter by Carrie Underwood
  • What a Girl Wants by Christina Aguilera

Mother:
  • Wish you were here by Avril Lavigne
  • Keep holding on by Avril Lavigne
  • Perfect by Simple Plan
  • Save you by Simple Plan
  • Never gonna be alone by Nickelback
  • Starts with Goodbye by Carrie Underwood
  • Mamas song by Carrie Underwood
  • Un Pacto by Aliados
  • Guarda Tu Fe by Casi Angeles
  • Tan Solo Pido by Samo
  • El  hubiera no existe by Carlos Rivera
  •  Hoy por ti/ Como poder olvidar by Sevando y Florentino
  • I would by Justing Bieber
  • Nothing like us by Justing Bieber
  •  Dancing with tears in my eyes by Ke$ha
  • Safe and sound by Taylor Swift
  • You are not alone by Michael Jackson
  • Guapa by Diego Torres




Father:
  • Love of a daughter by Demi Lovato
  • Because of you by Kelly Clarkson
  •  Perfect by Simple Plan
  • My way by Frank Sinatra
  • Mama’s song by Carrie Underwood ( change mama for papa in the lyrics lol)
  • I hate Love by Toni Braxton (make it more fatherhood like and you will understand)
  • You are not alone by Michael Jackson

Family:
  •  Be alright by Justin Bieber
  • I would by Justin Bieber
  • Wont let you go by Avril Lavigne
  • My wish by Rascal Flatts
  • Wherever I go by Miley Cyrus
  • You are not alone by Michael Jackson

Friends:
  • Wont let go by Avril Lavigne
  • My wish by Rascal Flatts
  • Wherever I go by Miley Cyrus

7 ene 2015

You don't really know me [By J.J]


The girl who always says yes wants to scream no
Takes over everyone's stressAnd ignores her own
The life and soul of the partyBut loves to stay home
She say's she's not broken-heartedBut she cries on her own

Playing pretend I shouldn't hide it
It isn't right Being a liar
I'm crossing the line Dancing with fire,
When I'm not fine Should I deny it?

Cause I'm going crazy when I'm not okay,
I keep praying that the cracks don't show my pain,
Cause even when I'm falling, I say my life is like a dream,But I'm fighting through a nightmare,
Cause I'm not really being me,
See you don't really know me

The girl who starts all the jokes
Just make her laugh,
Preaches the do's and the don't's
But loves to be bad,
Smiles when they guess who she's loving
What they say makes her mad
She says "I'm fine, I need nothing"
But she hopes for your hand

How can you know me? 
You're gunna get to know me