Sorry

I've been thinking lately about you and me, And all the questions left unanswered,

How it all could be. I hope you know, You never left my head, And if I ever let you down, I'm sorry.

I see you around here lately, You smile brighter than you should.And me I've been so lonely,

I'm glad you're doing good. Cause I can't forget, The way it used to be, No I can't let you go...

You know that you can take all of me,I swear I will be better than before, So sing it back.

I'm sorry for the things I've done,

Things I've done.

I'm sorry for the woman I was, And how I treated you.

No I can't let you go...

Is it Mean To Be?

I will start saying that yes I am a hopeless romantic but also a very realistic person. Somehow I use both qualities to see and analyze things when it comes to love and particularly my love life. I believe that when you truly love someone that love never dies even if both of you never speak to each other again. Also, I believe that when two people are still in love with each other, they will find the way to know about the other person directly or indirectly. You will want to be part of their lives and will be there for them if they need you. True love is selfless because you want the best for that person, yet at the same time it is "selfish" because the ultimate goal is to be with the one you love. I believe that when two people break up, it is not always because they stop loving each other. Sometimes you may love someone so much but you are aware both of you need grow and see if you truly wanna be with that person. You might date some other people in between but at the end of the day you will end up with the one you truly love. It doesn't matter if you broke up 2 hours, days, weeks or years ago. If you still love someone, you will fight for it. You will try to reconnect to see if the love between you two is the same or even better than before. Then you will make a decision as soon as you are sure about how you feel about that person and start again... give it another shot ... a chance.
When you go back wit someone after a long time, it is because you really know how you feel about them and what you want with them.
The second time around is better because you know what went wrong , what you did wrong and what you will not let happen again.!!! The second time around is the moment the relationship will be stronger because you know you will give it all you have to make it work. It will be a more mature love than the first time. You will be more careful when you approach something that is not working out, doubts or anything like that because you know you want your relationship to last. What is meant to happen will happen even if people or situations wanna get in the middle. You will not stop true love no matter what you do hunny. True love has a habit of coming back and happen.

Keeping It Real with Me

Thing to keep in mind about me directly or indirectly :) Hope it helps you when it comes to deal with me lol

1. If you make plans with me, make them when you know you are sure you can. I hate when people make plans and then change them at last minute, just cancel them or even worst don't say anything and leave you hanging. I know there can be emergencies and thats ok. But it is so disrespectful when you say you will do something and then disappear. If I would do that to you (anyone) will be pissed off!
2. 90% of the time I do not text first. Nothing personal! I'm just a loner I guess lol I'm always distracted with something. This doesn't mean I don't think about you (talking in general) or I don't care...I am just weird like that! Even my own family complain about it so I apologize for being ingrate or however you say it lol. Nah seriously nothing personal just a horrible fact- habit I have and been trying to change.
3. Reply to a text message when you see it ! I text back or reply in general as soon as I see it. For me it is about RESPECT. The gesture of you trying to communicate. In case I am busy, I don't wanna talk or whatever  the case is, I will let the person know instead of just leave it "seen" or not reply at all but still will keep doing other things. The only way you won't get any reply for a long time is because I am sleeping lol A fast reply from me will not indicate whether or not you are important to me, for that info you have to ask! lol
4. I want to believe I am a nice person. I try to be polite, sweet and nice with EVERYONE so do not assume anything! lol I think people deserve respect and politeness. If you wanna know what I think of you or how I feel about you, ask me directly otherwise you will NOT get an answer.
5. When someone ask for my opinion- advice or how I feel about something in particular, I will say it without a filter and even sometimes it might come out harsh. I will apologize for being harsh but I will be as honest as possible. If you want someone to tell you what you wanna hear and be a "fake person", do not come up to me !
6. How do I know when I truly care/love someone, when the though of something bad happening to them breaks my heart and even bring tears to my eyes.. then I know how important they are for me and in my life.
7. Be honest with me example: tell me your intentions, if you screw up say it to my face, etc. Whether you hurt me or don't agree about something, at least you will have my respect... and who knows maybe I forgive you  or not... Everything  can be worked out but just don't lie or play stupid games! I will find out. xD
8. I used to trust people till they give me a reason not to. Now I don't trust people unless they give me a reason to.
9. There is only one person (one ex) who I will have a relationship again (if that were to happen) cuz I knew what true love was with him. I believe in second chances - destiny in some cases.
10. People will always find an excuse to judge what I do then I will do what makes me happy. I will follow my heart even if people don't agree either way they will think whatever they want to think.
11. It is hard for me to say "I miss you" and even more " I love you". I do not say it to be nice or out of habit. If I ever say it believe I mean it with even single piece of me and please appreciate it!
12. I try to only have people close to me in my social media. It is a way to communicate with my love one that live in another country. Yet I don't live through or by it. 
13. If you have any type of feeling towards me ( positive or negative, love or friendship) whatever it is say it to my face directly otherwise I will never know!

Style

Midnight, you come and pick me up No headlights Long drive, could end in burning flames or paradise Fade into view, it's been a while since I have even heard from you I should just tell you to leave cause I Know exactly where it leads but I Watch us go round and round each time

You got that James Dean day dream look in your eye And I got that red lip classic thing that you like And when we go crashing down, we come back every time. Cause we never go out of style

You got that licked back, white t-shirt. And I got that good girl faith and a tight little skirt, And when we go crashing down, we come back every time. Cause we never go out of style

So it goes He can't keep his wild eyes on the road Takes me home

Lights are off, he's taking off his coat I say I heard that you been out and about with some other girl He says, what you've heard it's true but I Can't stop thinking about you and I
I said I've been there too a few times

Take me home...Just take me home

Dear No One...

I like being independent Not so much of an investment No one to tell me what to do I like being by myself Don't gotta entertain anybody else No one to answer to

But sometimes, I just want somebody to hold Someone to give me their jacket when it's cold Got that young love even when we're old Sometimes, I want someone to grab my hand Pick me up, pull me close, be my man I will love you till the end

So if you're out there I swear to be good to you But I'm done lookin', for my future someone

Cause when the time is right You'll be here, but for now Dear no one, this is your love song

I don't really like big crowds I tend to shut people out I like my space, yeah But I'd love to have a soulmate And God'll give him to me someday And I know it'll be worth the wait, oh

So if your out there I swear to be good to you But I'm done lookin' (But I'm done lookin'), for my future someone Cause when the time is right You'll be here, but for now Dear no one (Dear nobody) this is your love song 

Dear no one, no need to be searchin', no

P.D My dear no one can be someone new or someone I already know.lol

Where are you now that I need ya?

I gave you the key when the door wasn't open, just admit it See I gave you faith turned your doubt in to hoping, can't deny it Now I'm all alone and my joys turned to moping Tell me here, where are you now that I need you? Where are you now? Where are you now that I need ya?
Couldn't find you anywhere When you broke down I didn't leave yaI was by your side So where are you now that I need ya?

I gave you attention when nobody else was payin' I gave you the shirt off my back what you sayin' To keep you warm I showed you the game everybody else was playin', that's for sure
And I was on my knees when nobody else was prayin', oh lord