Peru Test

These eight weeks ( maybe a little less,maybe a little more) have taught me so many things about life, people and myself. This has been one of the toughest situations I have ever gone through. Even though you know how things will end since the beginning, you always hope there will be room for change, a miracle. I don't know if thinking "It will be different" was a mistake or just my nature to blame. 

Since I found out I was taking this trip, I knew what it meant. The big test was coming. I knew these weeks would be as tough as I ever imagine and check reality would hit as hard as it could in every single aspect of my life. 

People can or will always try to understand how you feel ( if they actually even care) but they will never know how painful it has been unless they go through it with you or themselves [on their own].When the hardest and darkest times come in your life (no matter what aspect), reality check takes place by letting you know who will truly and really be there for you no matter what. You will know who has been loyal to you and who was just acting all along pretending they were someone they've far from being. 

I am not the most popular person. Actually I'm pretty shy and all but it's something that has an expiration date. Therefore, I could say I might not have tons and tons of friends; but I thought I did have a decent amount. However, during this whole experience I realize who I can trust and know if something happens I can call no matter time place or anything because they give me their truly support. It surprised me when someone told me " don't hesitate to think if you might or not create a problem - you never so though- cuz no matter what you can always txt or call I will be there you will always have count on me since day one" yeah, I know it's something you probably hear a lot but from this person it was true I could see it and everyone around me did too. Different story with people who was always there "supposedly " and seen me as family  or always say how much I mean to them and love me and all but they are just there for the good moments cuz when something that matters happens they are no where to be found. People are more selfish than you would ever want to believe. You need to be aware that most of the time you just count with yourself unless you have just a couple of people who are truly loyal to you whether they have your blood or not. If you know someone with a GOOD HEART [not just pretending to have one], you have found gold cuz that is in extinction unfortunately. Therefore don't be stupid or naive enough to let that go or betray them with people or situations that don't worth a freaking penny!!!. Think before you act because once you break someone's trust and heart there is no going back. Forgiveness is hard but not impossible. Yet, some people are so damn fake that they take that for granted because they know the good heart you have ( if you do) then be careful. Forgive them because its good for you! But just open your eyes even if it hurts like hell. Chances are given to people who truly deserve it so think about it twice before you do it. Besides if you are the one asking for another chance make it worth it and don't be using that person cuz you know they care and love you and keep using the same excuses to do the wrong thing ...