Real or Not?

Giving so much of yourself to people is extremely risky...not all will appreciate it. Some wont even have a little consideration towards you no matter what you've been through or not, how long you know each other or whatever the case is. Thats why I take my time with people and don't get attached so fast like other people may do. I know how selfish people can be.
Now the point is to know what "real" is because everyone has a different point of view and way to feel. For me something real is when you show how you feel or anything not only verbally but also facts/actions back everything up. People easily say "you are my friend" or "I love you" nowadays. How true or if that person actually means is shown throughout time. It is easy to act up for  some months -particularly if everything is fine- but when the path gets rocky and all thats when you should be aware of everything .. it is when true feelings and colors are exposed.You can see through the mask, in case they are "wearing one"
Now when stories end - friendships or romances- you can decide how to take everything in. You can be mad and a coward blaming everything in just that person or brave enough to admit that you made mistakes too - both did-. Never regret something because something I learned and keep confirming every time is that every person comes into your life for a reason, he/she will teach you a lesson whether is through tears or smiles just have to be open to learn.
Worst case scenario, you realize your friendship/romance was not real at all from the person you were in love with, be happy you were real so were your feeling and you gave your best.. it will be sad for that person to realized they had the most amazing friends/ boyfriend-girlfriend but took it for granted. You don't want someone who is fake, let it go! You , me and everyone deserve better than that.The ones that leave without been throw away will come back without invitation...Life will make them realize it sooner or later and they will be sorry so leave everything to karma. It may hurts to let go what was real for you - whether or not it was for the other person as well- but believe me things get better  [ I've been there] just be patient and heal your heart.
On the other hand,If it was real things will happen when they are supposed to happen, if not you learn a lessons and you know there is someone better that fits perfectly with you. Live every story and be real because no one deserve to pay the bill of someone from your past and you deserve a new chance.. a chance to be happy and appreciated and maybe get to know and be with someone awesome ... Life is tricky, you never know how things will play out for you to fulfill your destiny. Take chances even though they can be risky at times because to some point life is that way. If you have the gut feeling it may be some new incredible story and something real, go for it with open eyes though If you know- find out what you feel is real and the person you are with shows you the same, be happy and don't let that slip of your hand no matter how tough some incredible story and something real, go for it with open eyes though ;) Remember that the past should be left there in the past where it belongs but keep the lessons learned in your mind and heart.

No Need the Hurt or Pain

Never Again [By K.C]

I hope the ring you gave to her turns her finger green I hope when your in bed with her, you think of me I would never wish bad things, but I don't wish you well Could you tell, by the flames that burned your words

I never read your letter 'Cuz I knew what you'd say Give me that Sunday school answer Try and make it all OK

Does it hurt to know I'll never be there Bet it sucks, to see my face everywhere It was you, who chose to end it like you did I was the last to know You knew exactly what you would do And don't say, you simply lost your way She may believe you but I never will Never again

If she really knows the truth, she deserves you oh how cute Ignorance is bliss But when your day comes, and he's through with you And he'll be through with you You'll die together but alone

You wrote me in a letter You couldn't say it right to my face Give me that Sunday school answer Repent yourself away

Never again will I hear you Never again will I miss you Never again will I fall to you Never

Never again will I kiss you Never again will I want to Never again will I love you Never

Decidiste Dejarme [By Camila]

Me envenenaste el silencio Se fue mi aire detrás de ti Me arrebataste hasta el suelo Tiraste y me rompí

Y fue una bomba de tiempo Todo el dolor que dejaste aquí Pero después del incendio De nuevo quieres derrumbar lo que quedo de mi

Tu decidiste dejarme tu disparaste primero Ni se te ocurra acercarte no te perdono ni quiero Nada más de ti y aunque tu recuerdo arde No voy a caer otra vez llegaste tarde

Y no es cuestión de egoísmo No fue tan fácil dejarte ir Quieres que juegue a lo mismo Correr detrás de ti

Te quise y no me arrepiento Por qué me llevo lo que aprendí A veces ganas perdiendo Y no hay manera de fallar si das como te di

Al final la vida pone a cada quien en su lugar Eso es lo que pasa cuando tratas de tocar el fuego

Explains my Behavior in General

Mistake [By D.L]

Now that I'm thinking sober Don't you try to get no closer I'm just gonna get in my car and drive Looking in the rear view mirror Everything is so much clearer Watch me wave it all goodbye

The lights flashing giving me all the danger signs Someone to save, to save but it don't work that way

Think you made your greatest mistake I'm not gonna call this a break Think you really blew it this time Think you could walk on such a thin line Won't be taking your midnight calls

Ignore the rocks you throw at my wall I see it written on your face You know you made it, your greatest mistake

When the last straw is broken When the last door is closing I ain't that dumb to stick around I ain't got the time for looking back When you let yourself slip through the cracks And you just keep going down

I'm a stay undercover, lay low, need some time No one to save, to save this sick cycle's over babe

Why you looking at me, spitting the same old line Trying to creep back ain't no flipping my mind Don't you get it by now the story's over Still calling my name outside my house

I'm hitting the switch, watch the lights go outWatch the lights go out

I hope you ache...

"Dance Floor Anthem" [ By Good Charlotte]

She's going out to forget they were together All that time he was taking her for granted

She wants to see, if there's more Than he gave She's looking for

He calls her up; he's trippin' on the phone now He doesn't want her out there and alone now

He knows she's movin' it Knows she's using it Now he's losing it She don't care

Everybody, put up your hands Say: "I don't wanna be in love I don't wanna be in love" Feel the beat now, if you've got nothing left Say: "I don't wanna be in love  I don't wanna be in love" Back it up now, you've got a reason to liveSay: "I don't wanna be in love Feelin' good now, don't be afraid to get down

We break up, it's something that we do now Everyone has got to do it sometime

It's okay, let it go Get out there and find someone

It's too late to be trippin' on the phone here Get off the wire; you know everything is good here Stop what you're doin', you don't wanna ruin The chance that you got to find a new one

Love...Love...Now you know what to do So come on, feelin' good.

Capricorn Woman in Relationships [Definitely Me]

A Capri can cuddle up to you and seek your protection to keep out the traumas of the real world or she may just stare at you coldly, almost challenging you to melt her frigid heart in the most intelligent way possible. Whatever maybe the case, Capricorn woman characteristics render her eagle eyes to choose a man who is potent enough to provide her with a life of economic stability, has good career prospects and most importantly, is the best father material in the world.

Most amazingly, a Capri girl makes for a fantastic wife. So, her demand for a good husband is anything but one-sided. She must most definitely and undeniably have authority and position. But given half a chance, this girl will bow down to the altar of raising a family than pursue a high-flying career. She would rather nurture her man's ambitions and actively take charge to transform his dreams into reality. Most delightfully, a Capricornian woman is innately elegant and graceful. She is naturally blessed with manners and the most refined ways to carry herself around and thus, makes for a most pleasant hostess. She is also the kind of girl who you can take home to your mother. She'll love and befriend your siblings instantaneously. You can rest assured that your entire family will actually love you for choosing such a family-oriented girl. At the same time, she will expect you to revere her family. Never joke about her family as she really doesn't take kindly to it. In fact, so dedicated is a woman of the Capricorn zodiac sign towards her parents that she can actually sacrifice her dreams of marriage willingly. She generally is the backbone of her family and never ever neglects her duties, even if they become a matter of resentment for her.

She manages her household with precision and has the wonderful ability to make even a modest dwelling feel like the most beautiful and warm abode. She recycles even the mundane into usable things. You shall never find a Capricornian girl fretting in case of sudden visitors as she keeps her larder ready just for such emergencies. Due to her caring nature, she also prefers to have guest rooms for relatives to come over and enjoy her nourishing disposition. Capricorn women are also known for their relentless efforts to develop the conditions of the underprivileged. They are doting mothers and hear out even the most inconsequential thing their children have to say. However, they never overindulge or spoil their kids.

A Capri girl shall never nag or whine for money, but at the same time, she shall ensure that her partner is slowly but steadily climbing up the success ladder. While her man is pursuing his goals, she will make do with the limited financial resources that are available. She might not be a spendthrift, but she will not compromise on quality just to save a few pieces of silver. All in all, she finds poverty and financial instability extremely unattractive and works vigorously to eliminate all signs of it. She just needs to know that the insurances are in place and her partner is monetarily strong enough to pay off that home loan.

It would be rather incorrect to call the Capricorn dame unromantic or philistine. She is deeply fond of music and very much enjoys profound strains of poetry. It's just that she has no appreciation for a poet who is starving to death. In other words, she believes in fairy tales only when she knows that her own palace has a strong realistic foundation. She doesn't believe in creativity that doesn't yield any tangible results.

A Capricorninan lady is seldom promiscuous or overtly licentious. They prefer steady relationships resulting in marriage. However, the dangerous capricorn rears its head when faced with infidelity and avenge all wrongdoing perniciously.

Finally, anybody who seeks to build a relationship with the female goat must understand that she is much less calm and tranquil internally than her even countenance portrays. The name Capricorn, therefore, resembles the word 'capricious' so closely, given the ladies' frequent and dark mood swings. A Capri lady can actually brood for days on end and is prone to extreme depression and pessimism, that generally have prolonged incubation periods. This morbid state of mind can actually be a result of the present state of affairs, the uncertainties of the future or simply a past disgrace. She can also become gloomy when made the butt of ridicule. However, it is also not wise to overtly flatter the female goat as she knows her true abilities and never overestimates them. She can, therefore, sense insincere compliments coming her way and is

Little Liars

Nowadays people blame media so much for ruining relationship whether they are friendly or romantic ones. However, to what extend is this actually truth? After talking to my best friend, I realize that yes media has something to do with it; but at the end of the day the ones ruining relationships are the people involved in it.  Through media you create different expectations about friendships and romantic relationships which can be damaging to the ones creating their links based on this. Be smart enough to use the media to communicate with the ones you love but don't base your whole relationship on that.
On the other side, media puts everything out there. Cheaters and liars are caught when they least expect it. I will say this is a benefit. For example, recently I realized I have been lied to in so many levels by someone who swear will never do something like the stuff that has been done -for a very long time. Social media helped find out the truth by chance. Funny isn't? I am glad life finds its ways to show people's true colors. I mean this person showed me its real face last year either way. I was disappointed in so many levels that now I may even start feeling sorry for that one. It is sad to see people not appreciate someone who has been there during the ups and down[whether it is a friendship or romantic story or anything else].

The truth always comes out one way or another, sooner or later and sometimes even through the most simple ways you realize everything that happens. You got to the point where you are neither angry nor sad because you can not expect anything more from them than just more disappointments.
Right now all I see are lessons, I don't know if that person(s) will ever read this or not, or will try to ever contact me...sincerely one way or another it won't affect me or my life.
I feel blessed because I always -most of the time- find the truth about everyone... who is fake  and who is real, who lied to me - when , how and all-; but most important I reaffirm who I can trust and count on.  I am in a good place...working on my goals and giving myself a chance to be happy in all aspects of my life.. Will things happen as I want them to? I don't know; but all I know is that I keep learning a little more each day. I get stronger and see things from different points of view. If something is not good for me, I just put distance because I don't need pain or hurt.

Just saying

 Cowards : will point fingers to look for someone to blame and will avoid any consequence of their actions when things go down the drain. They always take the easy way out.

Brave: Will admit their mistakes and the other person but will face consequences or problems trying to fin a middle ground and solution. 

Better Off [By S.E and V.G]

I know your eyes are burnin' But try and hold it in Don't let him see you cryin' Don't give that much to him Don't tell him that you love him Or that you're sorry one more time Or get on your knees, beg and plead Tryin' to change his mind

If he's gonna go, let him go If he wants to leave, let him leave If he's gonna walk, he's gonna walk He'll only leave you better off

So go on and get that suitcase And help him pack it up Girl, you ain't losing nothin' You don't need his kind of love Don't watch him as he's goin' It'll break your heart again And don't stand there waitin' With the door wide open Hoping he'll walk back in

You're gonna find someone who'll love you like he should have And when you finally feel the difference you'll be so glad You gave yourself the chance to move on You'll wonder why it took you so long And why you wasted so much time on him

Apology vs Revenge

Someone asks me "what would I do if anyone who hurt me came back in to my life no matter the reason why", I didn't know what to reply. Obviously some names were throw and depending on who that person was the answer was harder or easier. It was supposed to be easy because every situation is part of my past but unfortunately some scars are still healing. I take my time to heal because I try to do it the best way I can. I don't rush myself. When something happens I put every feeling I had for that person in a box till I am ready to open it and deal with everything.
 Some people have hurt me and never acknowledge how hurt I was whether because they were complete selfish or just blinded by their own pain ( not the same for me) Of course apologies from them were never said. That never stopped me from keep on going no matter how bad I hurt or not, whether or not an apology was said. Maybe it is good that I am that tough-cold, maybe not. What I know is that thanks to the way I am I get as far as I am even though it can bring some "headaches" along the way.
At this point in my life I wonder whether or not it is worth to say everything that was left unsaid when those people that hurt me come back - if they even do. Some will say it is good because you let it out but wouldn't be a way to open up scars that are not need to be opened anymore? Would it change something? I don't think so I mean the damage was done. Some people will say maybe you need to help that person see their mistakes but I think at this point ( 23 or older) people know and are big enough to know when they are screwing things up ... It is easy if someone cries, gets upset.. you are screwing up STOP think and do something.
To be honest I don't know what or how I would react if people who hurt me the most try to come back into my life. Probably I will just listen to what they have to say. Depends on how things go from there we can talk about the past or how I fee which is not the same than giving them a chance... that another story. All depends on how people act and behaves, how pure their intentions are.
On the other side, if they never go back oh well! I - you should be able to learn to live without having all the answers-apologies. Life is so complicated to try to understand all the "whys" or think about all the "What ifs". We have the present and where we are now. It is up to us to keep digging the whole we are or try to do something to get out of it. I will never take revenge or hurt people on purpose because I seriously don't see the point. Hurting them will not erase the pain they caused me in the past or make me better in any way or form so why would I do it? Thinking, questioning or revenge will only consume me or you but not solve anything at all.
Looking back should not be an option for no one unless it is just to remind yourself what you've learned and see how far you have gotten no matter what situations you were involved in. There will be times you will break down and no matter what some people say ( that you are weak or what other ignorant stuff they can say) it is OK! You are not a robot and you just need to stop and  process what you are feeling...try to do something to go and keep on fighting your battles and go forward with the journey. You are here for a reason and you destiny is to be happy so do it! Because we all can do it!

Boy vs Man

Simplicity