Good Me, Bad Me

Nowadays people try to hide their flaws so much pretending to get as closed as they can to perfection. Yet, don't you remember you are human therefore there will be things about you that will be lovable and other not so much. The point is to be real about who you are. Be proud not arrogant about the good things about yourself. Admit you have flaws but work on them! Being not perfect is understandable but NOT AN EXCUSE ... so here goes my list about the things I like about myself and the things I know are not lovable at all about me and I am working on :)... enjoy lol

Bad Things About Me:

• I don't forget easily. Therefore sometimes I may be resentful towards some people. It depends on what happen, if there was a talk about it and how I consider that person.
• I can be a little jealous and protective.
• I don't usually get very insecure but when I do it is because I've been pushed to that point by someone or something.
• I shut down when I am angry, upset and extremely stressed out...better than take it on someone at least to certain point. 
• When something big happens in my life and it is not good at all I bottle it up or take care of it on my own. At first I don't let people help me which isolates them.When I am ready, I reach for them and let them know what happen or ask for help.. yet not all people have the patience to understand and leave by then.
• For me it is easy to say good bye so if I fight you/something, appreciate it. 
• I hate feeling vulnerable or cry in-front of people. There are very few few people saw me break down because at that point I trusted them enough to see me in my "fragile" stage.
• I tend to worry too much lol don't judge
• I have my moments that I like to be spoiled .. meaning someone to cuddle and show me they care and appreciate me... not too much tho XD or I get allergies lol jk jk 
• I dont "spill all the beans" right away. I say what I need to say YET if you push me or whatever I may say everything I've ever felt and thought lol When it comes to actually like/love someone, I need to feel secure enough before I admit it to that person (in his face) lol 
• If someone wanna take distance from me, I may try to contact the person once or twice. I don't chase people. They wanna leave they can....no matter what the relationship with that person is. 
• I like to joke around only with certain group of people.
• I can be stubborn. When I have a strong opinion about something, I will defend it.

Good Things About Me:

• Faithful, honest as much as I can & Loyal.
• I care and love too hard. I like to support my love ones.
• If you need me I will be there as much as I can no matter when or where I am.
• I am strong, hard working and persistent.
• I am sensitive and expressive but only with selective group of people.
• I like to take care of the people I care and love.
• I will be there when no one else will be. 
• Mature for my age ( still way to go lol ), realistic...knows how to behave depends on where and with who I am.
• Give good advise.
• I have a noble heart.
• I like to focus on my studies or professional matters.
• Independent as much as I can and try to look after my finances lol
• I love and I'm kinda good with kids.. which mean I have patience but not for b.s lol 
• I am very family orientated. No matter what happens I love my family and always be there for them as much as I can.
• My mood is easy to read but not my feelings. Wanna know how I feel, ask xD
• I don't trust easily but when I do i do it with all my heart.
• I give second chances to people who deserve it but with restrictions. If I see that person is putting the effort , I will the the effort as well beyond what my comfort zone as I said before it hard for me to forget when someone hurts me. 
• Before I point out someones mistakes I start with mine. When I realize I made a mistake, I admit it and apologize for it.
• Problem solver. I like to talk about things yet when I reach the point I feel feed up with some behaviors or excuses, I tend to distant myself. 
• I am a very nice and friendly person even when people are not to me. But I have be it for long enough till I am feed up with it and decided to not show whether I care or not.  One thing is for sure no matter what if that person truly needs me i will be there till they are on their feet. 
• When I make a promise I do everything in my power to keep it.. if i know i wont.. then I dont do it and lie to the person about it or worst lie to me about it.

Well here is the "medium" list of what I bring to the table.. the good and the bad lol... what you see is what you get. I avoid playing games or pretending someone I am not. This is me, the imperfect but unique me. I may have my flaws and a very strong character/personality but my heart has pure intentions. When I care and/or love someone, I do it and that will never end it may be transformed but the feeling will be there...that's just me whether I told to that person(s) or not ... Love me or hate me, I wont change .. I will only improve :)