Things You May Not Know about Me [Part IV]

• I want my midnight kiss on New years eve lol don't judge I'm corny like that XD
• Things I need to keep working on : let go resentments and be more affectionate- expressive.
• I am glad there is still that "cold side" of me particularly when I have to confront emotional-heartbreaking situations. 
• In the last couple of months I met a couple of people that have impact my life in way they don't know and no matter what I am glad I met them. 
• When I decide to take distance with someone, I do it for real. If we are meant to be part of my life, the time we talk again will come if not it was the right thing to do. The right thing to do it is not always easy. 
• I am very understanding when I care about someone but if that person acts like an idiot then I start taking decision based on my sake no matter if that person agrees or not.
• When it comes to my feeling towards someone I am straight as I can be. If i see you as friend, sister-brother-acquaintance, future bf , completely stranger or whatever ask me and I will tell you. I don't hold back when it comes to that.  
• I seriously don't get hint. you have to be direct if you wanna know something related to me (feelings or anything)
• No guy I dated or liked ever-before gave me flowers/roses -.- that's sucks and its sad xD lol don't judge XD
• When I text I use a lot of emoticons XD so be ready :) 
• I strongly like those morning text or just random text in which someone tell you they misses you or anything nice showing you how much they care about you ( from family, relatives, friends or that special one)
• My strength and weakness is that I care too much. I wonder what I can do to make people lives better ( the ones i care about) and some take that for granted.
• I am rational person more than emotional.  I wonder why certain situations happened even though nothing can be done to fix them ( at least some of them) People can criticize me for this but thats how I am. I like to know the why-reason why things happened because that way I can do something about it in my present to improve my future.
• I believe in forgiveness and given second chances. However, I won't deny that I can be resentful at times particularly when that person really hurt me and betray me. I know for a fact their is one friend and one ex I haven't forgiven completely still in the process since I keep fing out more lies every time "I turn". Both of them hurt me during the worst period of my time not sure I can't forgive them unless there is a talk since every time something new that they hidden from me comes out. That doesn't stop me from living and giving people chances - to the ones deserving it- whether it is the first or second. 
• I push myself too hard in every aspect. I want to fulfill the expectations my love ones have or at least try to because thats my way of showing them I love them. Even though I give myself time to heal, I'm tough on myself giving me  little personal tests related to that "scar" or situation. I know that life isn't easy and not because it may still hurt that person/situation will disappear so I gotta "man up" and confront it, put it in my face to admit and move on.
• I may act cold or serious about so many things or when it comes to take decision in all aspects of my life. However, I have a warm and caring heart and when I love/care about someone I do it with all I got. I don't put up with betrayal in any type of way or form.
• I was a witness on how fake people can be. I mean i was close to that person ( not any more cuz of betrayal and that person hurt me in any way possible even though it will never admit it), that person's friends will stab that person's back like there was no tomorrow. It is so sad people like that exists but once again both were all liars so i guess they were meant to be in each other lives as "best friends" or whatever kind of link they have.
• I will never EVER cheat because I know how painful that is. Plus I wanna be able to look in to my boyfriend/fiance/husband and know that I faithful and loyal because I am committed when I am in a relationship... I cannot understand why people cheat. how can they live with so much shame (if they feel it) and see their partner like nothing happened or even say i love you and act like they actually mean it.
• Father -son/daughter or self sacrifice scenes make me tear  :'3
• If something bothers me I will let that person knows but if I've said it so many times then what I do its to shut down because if that person knows what bothers me and keep doing it there is no point. Plus if you know you screw it then do something I don't have to let you know every freaking time. I am very simple and you can read my mood on my face.. I don't fake it.
• I strongly dislike when people change when they have girlfriend/boyfriend. One thing is that person is special to you and another is that you start treating like crap to your friends.relatives who have been there for you. That's not cool at all. Keep your feet on the ground! 
• I may act cold under certain circumstances or when drastic decisions have to be done. Yet I am very emotional and sensitive lol. A Love letter, emotional scene on a TV show or movie or someone showing me hoe they appreciate-care-love me can make me tear like a baby lol.
• I usually don't make promises but when I do, I do everything I can to not break them.