Dear you... ( a letter for anyone who left my life friendships/love/relatives)

Dear you,

I am pretty sure this won't surprise you because If you know me at least a little bit, you know I express my feelings better in writing than speaking. 

You and I have fallen apart. The relationship/link we had till now is almost ruin completely if it is not already. It happened not only for any problem we had but also for circumstances from the outside that we let to get inside. You know how much you can mean to me or not and whether or not there is-was-will be love. You have made me believe that the love required in any relationship is not there anymore or at least it was not enough to make and fix whatever went down. Therefore, I am giving up. I don't give up on you because I don't care but because you don't or at least that's what it seems.
I deserve to be surround by people who truly love me and show it through actions specially when the darkest moments come. I am tired of giving my all and not receiving anything in return not even a sign that whatever I do is appreciated. You know I am a good person but everyone has a limit and after so long you reach mine. We can believe it was time for it to end, it wasn't mean to be in each other lives or in the near future things will not only get back to the way they were but be even better. Yet how you and everyone says " time will tell". You know how much I dislike that phrase but I respect and accept it.

You need to learn how to put yourself in the others' shoes . To not only expect things from people but also do the same things you expect. Take the blame for your mistakes and not only blame the other person.Say things you mean and back them up through actions. Be there not only when you want to and things are good; but most important when everything turns upside down and is dark and fearful. Stop justifying your mistakes saying " nobody is perfect." Even though you are right about not being perfect, you need to think before you act. Patience is something you need to work on. Stop underestimating me, you know just a piece of my history and even though I do worry a lot or get stressed easily; I am stronger than you think and can handle everything that have been / can happen in my life. You need to not only dream about your future but also work on it and surround yourself with people who truly love and care for you. There are few people who are part of your life but are as fake as they can be. You are aware of it still you have decided to keep them close to you. End cycles that are massively destructive for you because you hurt your present and kill your future even though you might deny it to yourself and justify it to you and everyone.
I wanted to be part of your life and be there to support you during the good and bad moments.Yet now I have a new role or my role has been destructed. I already have said everything you needed to know but here I am writing this to take it out of my chest .I forgive you and forgive myself for anything that happened.
 Sincerely,
                 Me
P.D
Don't you ever say I just walked away....Anything you wanna say do it you already know how to contact me (if you have the courage to do it in person then it will be the best way but I am sure you wont )...