Imagine That [ By S.E]

Imagine me, still loving you After all you've put me through Well, I can't help it, I just do
Imagine that and that's not the half

Imagine this if you can I've stood more, more than I should stand But I'd still take you back again
Imagine that, ain't that a laugh

Can you believe I'd swallow my pride Well yes, yes, I guess you can 'Cause you know you've always had my foolish heart Right in the palm of your hand So, for what it's worth to you It just don't matter what you might do Cause I'll still be waiting and loving you Imagine that, ain't that a laugh

So, for what it's worth to you It just don't matter what you might do Cause I'll still be waiting and loving you Imagine that, ain't that a laugh

Starts With Goodbye [ By C.U]

I was sitting on my doorstep I hung up the phone and it fell out of my hand, But I knew I had to do it And he wouldn't understand, So hard to see myself without him I felt a piece of my heart break, But when you're standing at a crossroad There's a choice you gotta make.

I guess it's gonna have to hurt I guess I'm gonna have to cry And let go of some things I've loved To get to the other side I guess it's gonna break me down Like falling when you try to fly It's sad but sometimes moving on with the rest of your life,
Starts with goodbye. 

I know there's a blue horizon, Somewhere up ahead, just waiting for me, Getting there means leaving things behind Sometimes life's so bitter sweet.

Time, time heals, The wounds that you feel, Somehow, right now.

P.D  
This song reminds me of the day I had to leave the U.S for a couple of month even though I knew it will affect my life is so many ways and it  did. I would take the same decision if I had to because it was the last two month I could spend with my mother even though if affected my personal life in a very negative way. Yet I know everything that happened since then has helped me grown and appreciate what I have and hope to have once again even though that its not only up to me... If its meant to happen it will because destiny and both of us ( mr.A2 and Me) will make it happen.. so time will tell.. soon cuz the expiration time is about to arrive

No intentes

"Intenta concentrarte solo en ti. No te lamentes si no consigues lo que otros si pueden conseguir. No envidies lo que no te pertenece. No intentes hacer cosas por demostrarle a otros lo que vales o lo que eres capaz de hacer. No intentes llamar la atención gritando en la tranquilidad del silencio de otros. No te olvides nunca donde empezaste a caminar, pues algún día regresarás al mismo punto de partida. No pienses en el tiempo que perdiste, pues en la vida nadie pierde nada,...siempre se gana un día aprendiendo. Nunca olvides que el mundo no gira alrededor tuyo. No juzgues a nadie,...no sirve de nada,...solo alimenta tu propia guerra. No intentes adjudicarle a otros los errores que tu mismo cometes. Desata los lazos de la fantasía y trata de SER lo mas real que puedas. Cuida tu silencio y tu entorno. No le pongas peso a la conciencia y despójate de la carga pesada diciendo lo que piensas, pero con sensatez y la sabiduría que Dios y la vida nos dio. Si con estas palabras he logrado convencerte de hacer algo bueno, esa era mi intención....recuerda que lo bueno si existe y prevalecerá por siempre en el mejor lugar del corazón.

Anything But Ordinary [ By A.L]

Sometimes I get so weird I even freak myself out I laugh myself to sleep It's my lullaby Sometimes I drive so fast Just to feel the danger I wanna scream It makes me feel alive

Is it enough to love? Is it enough to breathe? Somebody rip my heart out And leave me here to bleed Is it enough to die? Somebody save my life I'd rather be anything but ordinary please

To walk within the lines Would make my life so boring I want to know that I Have been to the extreme
So knock me off my feet Come on now give it to meAnything to make me feel alive

Let down your defences Use no common sense If you look you will see that this world is a beautiful
accident turbulent succulent opulent permanent, no way I wanna taste it Don't wanna waste it away

Guerreros

Todos tienen un enemigo poderoso, astuto, sigiloso. Es como ellos, es una parte de ellos y, sin embargo, no tiene nada que ver con ellos. 

Hasta el ser humano más miserable y cruel es un guerrero, que lucha contra esa parte de sí que lo doblega. No es una lucha sencilla. El enemigo está en el interior del propio guerrero y conoce sus debilidad y sus miedos. Sabe por dónde atacar. 

El guerrero vive en estado de alerta porque sabe que en cada error, en cada fisura de su alma, puede colarse el adversario. 

Toda guerra es interna, aún cuando se enfrenta a otro, el guerrero lucha contra ese aspecto de sí mismo que ve en el otro. 

Los guerreros no lucha por obtener un botín, luchan por ser dignos de ese botin. La lucha es por sobrevivir, por prevalecer, por ganarse un lugar en el mundo. El guerrero lucha, aún, cuando parece reposar. Y la lucha no muere con el guerrero, la lucha prevalece. 

Los humanos son guerreros muy extraños, que a veces ganando una batalla contra el otro, pierden la guerra contra sí mismos. La conquista es paso a paso, es día a día. Algunos días gana el guerrero, otros ganan sus demonios… pero la lucha persiste. 

A veces el enemigo se repliegue, pero el guerrero no se confía porque sabe que va a volver. El enemigo tiene la fortaleza misma del guerrero. El guerrero se compromete con su lucha, porque sabe que hay reliquias que proteger. El guerrero sabe que debe temer más al enemigo que no se ve. 

Wrecking Ball [By M.C]

We clawed, we chained our hearts in vain We jumped never asking why We kissed, I fell under your spell.A love no one could deny

Don't you ever say I just walked away I will always want you I can't live a lie, running for my life I will always want you

I came in like a wrecking ball I never hit so hard in love All I wanted was to break your walls All you ever did was wreck me

I put you high up in the sky And now, you're not coming down It slowly turned, you let me burn

And now, we're ashes on the ground

I never meant to start a war I just wanted you to let me in And instead of using force I guess I should've let you win I never meant to start a war I just wanted you to let me in I guess I should've let you win

Una Respuesta [By D.Y]

Esto que construimos,nadie lo va a arruinar  si tu y yo decidimos,por siempre perdurar si el amor toco la puerta solo dale una respuesta
 

En la guerra y el amor aprendí que todo se vale tu piensas diferente,en realidad somos iguales no hay razones pa' volver si no existen porque la mentira siempre sale

Tu no puedes,seguir jugando con mi esperanza hay algo peor que no tener nada y el que alguien te deje en la nada vas si hoy sin rumbo

La verdad que ya no puedo lidiar con la situación llevo demasiado tiempo no hay una contestación
yo me puse en tus zapatos pa'entender tu posición dejando el orgullo libre, y el amor en la prisión

Siempre es lo mismo,tu me llevas al cielo me cortas el vuelo,me recojas del suelo y me tiras de nuevo,y yo sigo llamándote parece que vivo engañándome ya entiendo,que en el proceso no sanas las heridas ,la mente no olvida todas caídas,promesas incumplidas pero sigo esperándote a mi manera amándote
aveces tenemos que derrumbar,para reconstruirnos el pasado hay que borrarlo no se puede revivirlo
lo que sientas que tengas el mundo en tus hombros,una flor puede renacer de los escombros

Letting Go... D.O.N.E

I am the kind of person who may go through the hardest storm and will try to be the calmest she can so she can be the support everyone needs. People come to me for advice, support or some tough love – honesty. That's me! I love helping people and knowing I made a difference even for only 5 seconds. I am nice maybe sometimes too nice to people who is not as nice to me as I am. I forgive but never forget and I know I still have some work to do when it comes to that. I’m always been there when people need me even if they disappoint me and break my heart. I put myself out there BUT it doesn’t mean I deserve to be walked over. I was feeling emotionally exhausted for the first time in my life. I just felt like " I’M DONE"... Now I am feeling better about me and everything in my life. Finding and starting new chapters in my life and knowing there is still a lot of things coming up whether they are amazingly good or not so much. Yet I decided I’m done putting myself out there for people who take it for granted and think I am always going to be that way no matter how they treat me or what they do to me. I put my ½ but the other person wants me to do theirs? No! I’m tired of people making me feel I have to prove them how I feel about them; hey it’s a two ways street! I am tired to be the one who listen but wont have anyone who will listen to me I want you to show it too. I’m tired of feeling I have no one to count on… I’m just too tired of the same b.s from the same people…

Maybe I will not change completely because that's how I am and I chose to be but some adjustment will be done for sure. If those people want to keep acting like they do till now, I will just put some distance … I will go away to look for my happiness. I deal with my own problems like I’ve always had and always will. That’s not the problem. The problem is that some people do not stop to acknowledge I may be hurting too because they know I’m strong and I will keep on going. I will keep being me but slightly selfish. I need to think on me because I’ve never done it… If people deserve the sweet me they will get it. If they don’t, I will just be absent not going to keep on trying … not anymore. Want to come back; you can as long as your intentions are good and true. Good-bye to the naïve me I guess…Time to be a little tough when it is required. The new me is still sweet and caring but a little tougher than before. I am good and know what I am and what I deserve for me and for my life. 

Cheating ....puack, eek, ew

So I finally had the "courage" - stomach to talk about this topic. I've been thinking about writing about it for the longest but for some reason didnt...I guess it was the moment till now...no particular reason by the way. Cheating. the word and concept which is very disgusting , annoying and more to mostly everyone ( the people talking about it or even the ones going thru an episode of such).
Should we start by stating what CHEATING is? I guess so since so many dumb men and women try to excuse themselves trying to find their own meaning and concept of "cheating" According to the Oxford dictionary : Act dishonestly or unfairly in order to gain an advantage. Therefore FOR ME and I think most women I've know cheating is any type of unfaithful behavior meaning flirting, kissing, touching, having sex and more when you are in a "committed relationship" plain and simple. Besides there exist emotional cheating which will be you open up 200% more and share everything I mean EVERYTHING important in your life with a certain person who is not your partner ( just that one).
 I hate cheating with every single cell in body. I feel really disgusted about the topic so you will realize I get very aggravated while discussing it. I can't believe there are some guys that will  say "I love my girlfriend" yet will be cheating with any girl they can whether is someone random, "friend" or an ex then why is the hell are you in a relationship? ( same goes to unfaithful girls). Lately I have seen examples in reality shows, TV shows, and real life. Most of the time is the same situations. The cheater will deny it till the last minute or the partners has undeniable proof of it.Then he/she will cry or make promises they will end up breaking as soon as they have the chance. I feel sick to my stomach just by thinking about it!!!!! Sorry ! For me it is a DEAL BREAKER in so many ways like I will never forgive something like that because it is so disrespectful and heartbreaking specially if that person acts like is nothing -.- like seriously? how can you sleep at night? Of course, if  their partners will decide to do the same to them ( cheating on them) they will flip out within a second saying a bunch of hurtful stuff because "how could they do that to them" -.- see! They can do it but if it is done to them oh God ! ITS OUT OF THE QUESTION!no one can do that to them ! Then WHY WOULD YOU DO IT IN THE FIRST PLACE!. THINK BEFORE YOU ACT! EVERYTHING HAS A CONSEQUENCE
Some rational people say people cheat for different reasons. They may be seeking for power, feeling attracted, trying  to fulfill something missing in their lives whether is professionally or emotionally. For example, if your girlfriend or boyfriend is unsatisfied in their career paths and cheat, it may be because it make them feel somehow special. I think that is ignorance and just trying to excuse any type of wrong behavior. 
As any other wrong decision, cheating has many consequences in person who cheats and the one who's been cheated on.  The one cheated on will be insecure since then because her/his partner decided to break any type of trust there was. The cheater will be paranoid if their partner will take some type of revenge doing the same to them and more. When the cheating come clean there is only two option break up or give it a shot - moving on from that disgusting episode. If both people really like REALLY love each other they an try to work things out yet it will very DIFFICULT for both. The relationship will never be the same unless both people have a very deep conversations stating what they truly want and truly commit to each other and make things work. 
All I have to say is that I am against it in every single level. I want and love being in a committed, faithful relationship. I will not forgive a partner cheating on me in any type of future relationship I have or any type of circumstances ( NO EXCUSES). I think I deserve the respect and loyalty I give!. So that is why I will always show my cards when the relationship starts so if the person is a cheater he better say it in the begging instead of later on when we are both invested. Thanks God my exs were as loyal as they could be ... we should see about the next one ( new or ex ) xD lol Please people be faithful! no excuses ! if you chose to be in a relationship then respect it !!!!!

Time is.... NOW

“It's a terrible thing, I think, in life to wait until you're ready. I have this feeling now that actually no one is ever ready to do anything. There's almost no such thing as ready. There's only now. And you may as well do it now. I mean, I say that confidently as if I'm about to go bungee jumping or something - I'm not. I'm not a crazed risk taker. But I do think that, generally speaking, now is as good a time as any.” [ Hugh Laurie]

Instead of Judging Try Understanding

Hesitation...But Why?

We all as human tend to hesitate or feel insecure about different topics at some point in our lives. The point is to recognize why. There is always a why for MOST of the stuff that happens or decision we can take along the way. For some it may be part of who they are, their personality. Yet for others may be just a reaction to certain moments, situations or time.
We all are a little insecure inside. The one who denies it is a liar. The point is that we don't let that stop us from living. However, there might be some people  who make that "insecurity" as part of who they are. They adopt it as a percentage of their personality. The reason behind it will definitely vary from person to  person. Any childhood experience whether it was related to people blood related or not. It is important to realize why are making it such a big important part of you so in case it is slowing down what you can be doing or how you can be improving yourself; you can do something about it. Be the best you want and can be for you first before anything or anyone else. Be happy!
On the other side, some people may feel insecure as a reaction of a certain situation they can be living or have lived. As human beings we all react to the environmental factors that try to ruin our so call life, feelings, thought, and more. If you had a traumatic experience it will scar you. Okay that might sound very harsh but it is true. Some of us feel that when someone breaks your heart is traumatic, terrible, hard to overcome (Including myself). Maybe apart boyfriend cheated on you then how can you believe that new person may not do the same thing. You hesitate about how truthful their feelings may be or not. Maybe its not a past boyfriend, maybe it is the same one that you are trying to give him a second chance but the ghost of what he did follows you. You hesitate every time he makes you feel special because maybe there is something behind those actions right? You start building up so much insecurity that starts breaking you apart and everything you love as well including that relationship.. Maybe it is not romantically, maybe a friend betrayed you telling your secrets or acting like an idiot then when that person ask you to not lose your friendship of X amount of year you hesitate. You don't want to be betrayed by that person but at the same time you don't want to lose that person because you truly care. Maybe you still in love with your ex but don't know if its the right time, if this time things will last, will be different. You wanna profess your love but don't low if the other person feels the same way so you hold back. Maybe your mother, father, relative died and want to get close to other relatives because you feel alone but also don't want to bother them because you know that you are no-ones priority and they have to live their lives....These are only few examples of hesitation....
Hesitation it is normal but you should not let it run your life. I know it is hard to stop it ad make a decision but it is part of growing up. Fin the reasons why you are hesitating and then find the way it help you to over come all those fears because you deserve to give it a try and maybe be happy. I know it may not be what you want to hear but it is true. Maybe giving it a chance can bring happiness if not it will be lesson for next time. STOP WAITING!  there will be no perfect time because life is not perfect. Think if giving it a chance is with it, if its worth the fight.... if it is, DO IT! ACT NOW! because later may be too late and you will regret it whether or not you admit it to the world. Your good and pure intentions is what makes it perfect. and if you said YES I WILL, then truly make it work and don't savage yourself or the relationship ( family, friendship, romantically). Both deserve to be true to each other,be on the same page, and make it happen :) Don't blame each other for what happened in the past. Start from zero BUT being aware of what went wrong and how. Discuss it, "put the cards on the table", state which Do and don'ts to do for BOTH, be not he same page is the best way to start. Be hones, loyal, faithful, true.... come clean and stay that way.... :) together can overcome anything... a good friend, partner, relatives is what we all want in our lives so be it and look for that.

How I am ...Plain and Simple

Tal Vez [ By M.N]

Te ví de paso por mi vida romance que apenas duró pero yo voy a 

atribuirle a tus besos una buena reputación

No me dejaste conocerte no mas allá de una ilusión pero entre

tantas equivocaciones no mereces tú, llamarte un error.

Y lo que no mata, con el tiempo sólo duele y el amor a veces 

vuela lejos pero vuelve y tú y yo tal vez, sólo diré tal vez.

Otoño va invadiendo el cielo la luna parece un borrón y tu 

sonrisa me persigue entre las nubes aunque me cambien de estación

Si bien es cierto te amaba pero en verdad me entusiasmé y ahora 

me queda una tarea nada fácil volver a verte como ayer

Y el amor a veces vuela lejos pero vuelve y lo que no mata con 

el tiempo sólo duele y tú y yo tal vez, tengamos un después.

Y ya sé a qué sabe un instante de tu amor ya sé cómo sonarías 

tú como canción y quise cantarte aunque al final me desafiné 

el corazón.

Tú fuiste el récord de mi vida romance que apenas duró
deja que piense que aun puedo conquistarte
aunque tal vez no sea hoy.

Diez Claves Para Seducir A Una Mujer de Capricornio

1. La mujer de Capricornio es cautelosa, tímida, exigente, culta, decidida y metódica.
2. Admira al hombre que logra éxito social o económico porque ella misma aspira a conseguir una posición importante en la sociedad.
3. Al ser calculadora, prudente y muy pensante, es muy difícil de conquistar. Lo primordial es tener mucha paciencia.
4. La cabrita es dominante y ambiciosa. Para seducirla hablale de tus planes para el futuro y tus proyectos. Tienes que demostrarle que tienes metas para superarte en la vida y estarán en la misma sintonía.
5. Le gusta el hombre sólido, serio, responsable, autoritario e inteligente. Para poder tener posibilidades tendrás que ser fiable, fuerte y decidido para transmitirle un gran sentido de la seguridad.
6. Le fascinan los desafíos intelectuales y poner a prueba las capacidades de su pareja.
7. No le agrada el hombre fantasioso o delirante así que tienes que tener los pies bien puestos sobre la tierra. Detesta la vulgaridad y es un poco esnobista, le gusta posicionarse en un alto nivel.
8. Valora las relaciones estables y serias. Necesita que le hables de seguridad, de estabilidad y de algo permanente.
9. Su estilo es tradicional, formal y conservador, no le interesa llamar la atención ni espera grandes reconocimientos.
10. Le esquiva a las manifestaciones públicas de afecto ya que prefiere la intimidad.

Not Over You [By S.E]

Dreams, that's where I have to go To see your beautiful face anymore I stare at a picture of you and listen to the radio Hope, hope there's a conversation We both admit we had it good But until then it's alienation, I know That much is understood And I realize If you ask me how I'm doing I would say I'm doing just fine I would lie and say that you're not on my mind But I go out and I sit down at a table set for two And finally I'm forced to face the truth, No matter what I say I'm not over you

Damn, damn boy, you do it well And I thought you were innocent Took this heart and put it through hell But still you're magnificent I, I'm a boomerang, doesn't matter how you throw me I turn around and I'm back in the game Even better than the old me But I'm not even close without you

And if I had the chance to renew You know there isn't a thing I wouldn't do I could get back on the right track But only if you'd be convinced So until then... If you ask me how I'm doing I would say I'm doing just fine I would lie and say that you're not on my mind... I'm not over you ...Not over you

Push Me Away

Something anyone I care should keep in mind. I am a very nice person and loyal yet some people take that for granted. When I truly love someone ( family, romantically or just friendship ) I tend to give too many chances. However when the person take it for grand too many times I start taking my distance from them. From now on I will still give chance IF the person shows me he/she deserves it. If not, no matter how important that person is to me it is on their hands whether or not they want to push me away because I can fight against that for so png because I just give up oh them... Appreciate me because when I love, I love hard even more when I feel appreciated . I am loyal to my family, friends all love ones.

Things I'll Never Say [ By A.V]

I'm tuggin' at my hair, I'm pullin' at my clothes I'm tryin' to keep my cool, I know it shows I'm starin' at my feet, my cheeks are turnin' red I'm searchin' for the words inside my head

I'm feelin' nervous Tryin' to be so perfect 'Cause I know you're worth it You're worth it, yeah

If I could say what I want to say I say I wanna blow you away Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight? If I could say what I want to see I want to see you go down on one knee Marry me today Guess I'm wishin' my life away With these things I'll never say

It don't do me any good, it's just a waste of time What use is it to you what's on my mind? If it ain't comin' out, we're not goin' anywhere So why can't I just tell you that I care? 'Cause I'm feelin' nervous Tryin' to be so perfect 'Cause I know you're worth it

Yes, I'm wishing my life away And these things I'll never say What is wrong with my tongue These words keep slippin' away I stutter, I stumble Like I've got nothin' to say 'Cause I'm feelin' nervous

Yes, I'm wishing my life away But these things I'll never say...

Being Cold Vs Acting Cold

So ok after a while people making comments about how I handle things I will talk about the difference of being cold and acting cold. During my last trip to my home country, I knew people had expectations (good and bad ones) about how I was going to act, dress, behave etc etc. The life changing fact that I lost my mother was making people be “concern” about me and behalf and not everyone actually care… I received very encouraging and positive feedback from friends, relatives and people in general but I felt some people were thinking about me in a negative way meaning I was acting better and “stronger” than they thought I would… Some people think I am cold heart… Flashing news of last minute I AM NOT! It is funny to me but seriously do you think I have an iced heart? I’m not Elsa from frozen lol… I know people were surprised about the decision I have made since I turn 16 but hey that is the way my parents raised me. Being independent and trying to see the bigger picture before taking decision only based on my emotional “mood” at that right moment…I know I act somewhat cold trying to handle some situations because I want the best outcome yet I am still affected by it whether it is positively or not. I am human not a machine -_-! 

Examples:

•   People judged me because I decided to come back after knowing my mom was terminal. It wasn’t because I was a bad daughter or worst but because if I had the time I would have loved to share the achievement of my bachelors with her. I knew it meant a lot for both of us. I spent two of her last three months. I did everything in my power to make sure she was okay with my decision and I was there for her physically and emotionally. I left everything that summer and I don’t regret it even though my life change completely after that trip in many ways.
•   After my mom passing I didn’t took time off to grief because it was time for midterms and also my last semester. I didn’t sacrifice time that I could have spent with my mom for nothing. Funny story I made it to the Dean List (honors) without any intensions. I guess it was my gateway. A lot of people said, “ it was admirable” for me it was the only option and decision I could have taken. I know my mom, family, and all love ones are proud of me. It is my way to honor her and my grandfather.
• When I end a relationship, I am hurt. It will be impossible for me not to because if I am with someone is because I actually care and love that person. My cousin pointed out I was “cold” after ending my last relationship. He could get around the idea of me being “ok” if I broke up with the only guy I actually picture my future with. He was stunned by it. My reply was:  not because I am not crying all over the place it doesn’t mean it didn’t broke my heart into X number of pieces. I wanted to last and still hope for another chance yet it is not just up to me. I can't get depressed because of it if I didn’t do it for my mom. I love him with all my heart (yeah I still do till TODAY) but if it is meant to be it will be plus if he truly loves me he will come to me and talk to me directly about us getting back together and how we would handle it this time. He said he could never guess how “mature” I was about the topic. I don’t think I am as mature as he thinks it is just the way I am and my view about certain topics.
  
• I am not as social as other people my age I rather watch a movie with good company or by myself, go to the mall, have dinner, etc. rather than go hard partying. I want to spend meaningful time with my love ones not just hours. I want to create memories and remember them and not be asking what I did last night. Maybe boring for many but again IT’S ME!
•  Sometimes I am not the first one to text. Depends on the matter (romantic or friendship) But usually I don’t want to bother anyone. I may want to talk or chill with that person but I know they have a life busier than mine right now (hopefully I will get busier soon – fingers crossed) so I don’t want to bother them. It doesn’t mean I don’t care. Romantically I love when the guy makes the first move. Old fashion? Maybe who knows but definitely I will be missing that person and wanting to see him and cuddle etc etc. No texts don’t mean anything. If you wonder something ASK ME!

As you see these are some examples that clearly shows I AM NOT COLD lol I act cold because it is my way to show I am strong even though some not so good things have happened in my life. Some people may see it as good some not so much. Yet it has helped me keep on going even if I break down form time to time. I have a very soft and fragile heart and some people know by experience. I don’t trust easily maybe that is why some people see me as serious and cold. I am more rational than emotional YET I FEEL believe it or not! I love, laugh, cry, break like anyone else. BUT I consider stronger as well because I am the moral support for my family. When there is a problem or clear example about my mom passing, they will go to me to feel better and tell me how they feel or ask for my opinion. Therefore I need to keep still and strong for them, for me. I make mistakes and sometimes I am a little too tough with some people. Please let me know! I am not a mind reader and I may not acknowledge it. If you tell me, I will try my best to be more careful. Hey everyone wants respect and consideration so do I. So now you know the difference. Being cold is not feeling at all, not caring, have no emotion. Acting cold is being a little more rational than emotional and it is very well explain.