The Last Time [By T.S]

I find myself at your door, Just like all those times before, I'm not sure how I got there,All roads—they lead me here.

I imagine you are home,In your room, all alone,And you open your eyes into mine,And everything feels better,and right before your eyes, I'm breaking, no past No reasons why,

Just you and me.

This is the last time I'm asking you this, Put my name at the top of your list,This is the last time I'm asking you why, You break my heart in the blink of an eye

You find yourself at my door, just like all those times before,You wear your best apology,But I was there to watch you leave,And all the times I let you in,Just for you to go again,

Disappear when you come back,Everything is better.

and right before your eyes,I'm aching, no pastNowhere to hide,Just you and me...

This is the last time I'm asking you,

Last time I'm asking you this...

Cold Ice

So today is one of those days where I feel and ice cold sensation in my chest. Will it be my intuition warning something bad or sad will happen or will be just an accumulation o inner feeling and thoughts... I just have the feeling I will find that out soon, sooner than I expect it .. I just know that no matter what I do I have that feeling that I wanna burst into tears any second but I will hold it together ... For today it is okay for me to deal and feel it but tomorrow I gotta find the way To feel better and if there is no way I will have to creat it . I really wanna have a cold heart like before but I can't give up on myself that way . For better or for worst my heart was woken up a while ago so I gotta make things work for myself now ... My heart beats , loves and gets sad like any other SO before you judge me at least talk to me so you ca TRY just try to understand what I may be going through

Save You [By S.P]

Take a breath I pull myself together Just another step till I reach the door You'll never know the way it tears me up inside to see you I wish that I could tell you something

To take it all away

Sometimes I wish I could save you And there're so many things that I want you to know I won't give up till it's over If it takes you forever I want you to know

When I hear your voice Its drowning in a whisper It's just skin and bones There's nothing left to take And no matter what I do I can't make you feel better If only I could find the answer

To help me understand

That if you fall, stumble down I'll pick you up off the ground If you lose faith in you I'll give you strength to pull through Tell me you won't give up cause I'll be waiting if you fall Oh you know I'll be there for you

If only I could find the answer To take it all away

Things U May not Know About Me[Part II]

• I am more expressive and corny that I look like 
  
• I believe couples should be different so they complement each other. If both are exactly the same 
1. It will be too boring 
2. 2. There will be no balance. ex if both are egocentric how would they apologize to each other to solve a problem? damn world war III lol  (not joking about history but you know what I mean)
• It's funny how people its interested if im dating someone or no.. right now im single! if im dating someone I won't hide it.. never did... never will.. you will see my relationship status or if you ask me I will tell you
• I know what I want for me but I don't plan it like a control freak.
• I dont trust people easily. People may think that because I am nice I trust them.. WRONG!
• Some typical topics make me blush.. I wont give details use your imagination lol I know its normal but still :$
• it is funny and irritating to me how many people have the "guts" to tell me they know me so well but they don't there are only few FEW people who can actually say that. The right phrase for them will be they are getting to know me or know me somehow. 
• Funny and irritating when someone tells me " you can lie to me I know you" and you're being honest ..back in my head" oh yeah you know me more than I know myself right pft lol
• People come and go, they talk to you and randomly just stop... but the ones who never leave my side when I am not lovable are the one meant to be in my life... I don't chase people so they will be there for me. don't wanna txt me, talk to me, be friends on social media.. do it... don't complain when im not there anymore. 
• I will like to get married young.
• I found a couple of baby cloths between my mother's things like brand new [after she passed away]
• It takes me time to fall in love because I do it for real and hard... I don't love someone new every few weeks or months.
• I'm not gonna put up with anything less than I deserve. I'm not gonna play games not a teen anymore. I want something stable and serious. [ Romantically]
• When someone ask me something directly, I try to answer as honest as I can because not everyone has the courage.
• I have never come back with an ex cuz [ I don't have a rule about this so its just life - its what has happened so far]. The only time I tried he lie to me in so many level thanks God I found out a couple days earlier before we talked about the final decision. If I do come back with an ex, he will have to be seriously amazing and this will mean im madly in love with him. We will have a pretty good convo so we both will be on the same page.
• I only asked someone back ONCE in my life!!!! Thats something I don't do because thats me. When a relationship end it ends,but I tried my best at that moment. I don't know what would happen with that.. Time will tell. But deff.. I think I will not do that again ... I don't regret it
• Music is my scape and best company.. no matter what mood I am .. music is everything!
• I have an acoustic guitar that IM IN LOVE with lol its been one of the best present I've had. 
• When I post lyrics here or fb or any other social media network is just that unless I  tagg you or something u.u
• When I let go I do it completely even I take distance literally.. this doesn't mean I'm a coward, this mean i am strong enough to let you live your life the way you so much wanted to. If our path cross again int the future we shall see... don't ask me what will happen next if you are the one making the move.
• My  biggest fear is to lose the one I love and one way or another it is what keep happening to me u.u
• I HATE CLOWNS 
• My playlist is multi-polar meaning I have all kinds of music but electronic or house however you wanna call it.. I want to listen to music which have lyrics! like I will cry , laugh or day dream lol

Let It Go [ by Avril Lavigne ft Chad Kroeger]

Love that once hung on the wall Used to mean something, but now it means nothing The echoes are gone in the hall But I still remember, the pain of December Oh, there isn't one thing left you could say I'm sorry it's too late

I'm breaking free from these memories Gotta let it go, just let it go I've said goodbye Set it all on fire Gotta let it go, just let it go

You came back to find I was gone And that place is empty, Like the hole that was left in me Like we were nothing at all It's not what you meant to me Thought we were meant to be

I let it go and now I know A brand new life is down this road And when it's right, you always know So this time I won't let go

There's only one thing left here to say Love's never too late

I've broken free from those memories I've let it go, I've let it go And two goodbyes led to this new life Don't let me go, don't let me go

It's Confusing

How I feel

If you truly want to know how I feel ask me directly because If you only go for how I act sometimes it is not the same.. meaning during tough times or hard- emotional situations I keep it together and cool. I usually keep myself together and talk to certain people about my deep feelings. I don't just throw them and show it... so yeah ( talking bout serious stuff otherwise you can just see it in my face)

P.D. Mr A 2

Amazing Life?

Having an amazing life doesn't mean your life is perfect, it means you try to see things in another way meaning you live with a positive mind set during the bad and good times. I know my life is amazing as it can be. I have been through the toughest during the last 9 months but I stand strong. I have no hate or resentment in my heart toward noone cuz it isn't worth it. I have been stab on the back but I keep on going. Before I point my finger to point out someones mistakes I point out mines. I know my life will never be perfect no matter how much I wan to. I know not everything I want or deserve will happen. I know people come and go but the ones who truly care for me and need to be valued by me will never leave me particularly during the darkest moments when Im not lovable at all. If my life wouldn't have been so hard, I wouldn't be as strong as I am . This is the beginning for better and worst things to come but I don't let that hold me back anymore. I am here to find the way to be happy in every aspect of my life. Always will give my best in every aspect and to everyone. If they don't appreciate it, their loss... not gonna get bitter, sad or anything.I will just do me surround by the ones who truly love, care and support me :D

On The Line ( By D.L and J.J]

I didn't wanna say 'I'm sorry' For breaking us apart

I didn't wanna say 'It was my fault' Even though I knew it was I didn't wanna call you back

Cause I knew that I was wrong

One in the same Never to change Our love was beautiful We got it all Destined to fall Our love was tragical Wanted to call No need to fight You know I wouldn't lie But tonight, we'll leave it on the line

Listen baby Never would have said 'Forever' If I knew it'd end so fast Why did you say 'I love you' If you knew it that it wouldn't last Baby I just can't hear what your saying The line is breaking up Or is that just us?

I try to call again I get your mailbox like a letter left unread Apologies are often open ended But this one's better left unsaid

Plain ans simple.. I am showing my card... will you dare to show me yours???

Next Relationship

Moi

Manual When I am Mad, Pissed, ...

Well here I will leave some tips for people so they can handle me when I am disappointed, mad, pissed and anything in between... since I realize only one person really knows how to deal with me when I am mad so she really deserves the credit and its Alejandra Rios
Here is what I want

• If I post something online stating my mood and particularly this one and you see it all you need to do is to leave me alone -.-. Ok maybe people more sensitive than me wanna talk I DONT! unless I am the one asking to please talk for a lil.. then don't do it. I appreciate you care but if you so say you "know me" so well you should know this.. not to be mean... o, I'm not going for these but it's pretty simple If you don't know, then I will let you know im not "available" and say sorry. 
• If you wanna engage communication with me ok cool call or something but keep quite and just put music .. Music always helps.
• If you really need help while I'm mad not to be a horrible person but don't come to me.... because what you gonna get is not help cuz my brain won't be functioning like you would like to, and what I may say will be tougher than my usually type of help so.. for your sake if you a re extremely sensitive... avoid it!
• If you feel like you really want to let me know you're there for me do it. Its ok to say something like " you know im here ok " thats it . You don't have to try to get me to talk, I will when its time for me to do so if I do.  Don't try to do small questions to know whats going on, just don't ... not being mean again but it doesn't help me...instead it irritates me even more.. yes im weird like that I know. 

I think this is pretty much what you need to have a healthy relationship with me whether you know me or not.. it was helpful I guess ,.. and please if you don't speak spanish just translate it.. there is a bottom on the right corner or just doit on a website lol

Little Details

Exactly, little details like a good morning text, any text expressing how much that person means to you, or how much you miss them.. txts making feel them special gets you along way... well thats how I feel about them :3

What I Deserve Without Any Hesitation

We Shall See ...

Ask me questions but be respectful

esto es en ask.fm

How I may feel

Sometimes I act like I don't care but it will depend on who and what we talking about for you to know how much I could seriously care. For better or for worst I don't share my feeling with everyone ( the deepest ones) because most of the people not truly care but the ones who knows me for real will see in my eyes the truth and my deepest feelings..

It's not Official Till It's Facebook Official

I have been reading and seeing people complain about how "social media" destructs relationships over and over again LIES! I don't believe that AT ALL! I think people are the ones who destroy them whether it is from the inside or outside meaning the couple grow apart, the couple ends up being influenced by people - situations, or people do everything in their power to destruct them. There will be exes [form one side or maybe even both] or just jealous people - "friends" [ fake ones] that will make comments, send inbox and stuff that will create drama.. It happened to me ( both cases previously mentioned). So if you know who you are, who you are with, the type of relationship you have; and you are "happy" with the decisions you have taken then ... don't care what people say against what you post online as long as it doesn't disrespect anyone -_- duh! Stay together so this people trying to break you guys apart don't win!!!!!!!! Not gonna make the same mistake again  like ever

In my case, I have posted my relationship status, general status and stuff like that and never had a problem before the last couple of years when I let some people influence me in changing how I see the social media. Yes they tried to make me see it as evil and destroy any relationship you have BUT I don't agree with them "anymore". The relationships status that I preciously shared did not destruct my past relationships at all ( no counting the last one) because we knew where we stand and if they ended it was for unrelated reasons to it.

I like to post some stuff that happens in my life like relationship status, pics, phrases, songs and some post. NO I am not obsessed with social media or over share everything. I share maybe 15 or 20% of things that happen in my life. I like to feel free to share what is making me happy ( relationship status or good news) because most of the people I have on my Facebook [for example] are my relatives, people I went to school with [high school, college, university] and friends I have met at least once X) so yeah I mostly have my stuff on private like 90% of the stuff only my friends can see it and what it is published on public are mostly phrases or songs  so whats the problem? Plus I wanna feel free to do so since most of my family and closest friends are not close to me ( geographically)

I will always share the good things ( relationships status, photos, phrases, quotes, maybe good news in my life) because I don't see the problem with it. I let once people influence me and things went wrong but hell that won't happen ever again because now I am aware who is who ;) So if you are like me and will post your next relationship status because I don't hide who I am dating ( when I do) and other stuff  COOL! :D. Just be aware people will talk whether it is on you social network ( Facebook, emails acc. , twitter, others) or in person. so don't blame on it. Just be and feel free to share you are dating that person you are madly in love with, the good news about the new job you got, or just how amazing you feel in that new shirt you got as a way to spoil yourself. .. . JUST KEEP IN MIND not to base your life on it like yeah it is ok to share it but you must not publish every detail of what you eat every single meal, how many times you breath, and stuff like that thats not what I "support" lol Plus be aware who you add and talk only there are some crazy people out there so watch out.. use the media in a smart way guys... so well thats my input in the topic xoxo

P.D I agree with the pic by the way to a certain point lol.. you don't have to put it on Facebook but it feel nice to share it with your love ones :)

Just Something like me

One of the different things that will be just so me when I am in love :3

Nothing Less

I have never settled for less than I deserve. I know what I bring to the table when I am in a relationship so I expect the other person to do the same. I know I am not perfect. I can be pain sometimes ... hey everyone has a bad side and not so hot qualities BUT the point is to work on it for yourself and complement one each other. We all are difference and thats the point so you can help each other out. If two people are exactly the same... its boring and things will get ugly because they don't balance each other.... I love hard so I like - love when the other person do the same and appreciate what I do .because I do it.  

Graduation Dilemma

Well I shall start by saying that May has been a crazy month so far. I saw someone I haven’t in a very long time, I got the best news but the right next day I found out some big problems were on the table and I confessed I cried like a baby; I wanted to see someone again (the one I saw before) but he didn’t say anything hopefully cuz he was busy with work and not because he just can care less; and finally one of the most important man in my life is visiting – my uncle.

I cant believe my graduation is just days, DAYS away. It is a big deal for me because after everything, every change and particularly even with everything that happened last semester I MADE IT!!!! I graduated and in my last semester I made it to the Deans’ List (honor’s list) I am proud of myself because I gave my best even though I am sure I could have done better.  I am not perfect in any way but I feel good about myself because I know for sure I give my all in all aspects of my life from professional to personal.

Last year I used to picture how my graduation day would be. Unfortunately it will have variations for different reasons. The two people I wanted to be there will not… my mom and my ex. Obviousl

y, I wanted to spend that special moment with my parents since it would have been the first graduation I had both of them but God had other plans. Also, I would have introduced my ex as my boyfriend to my parents and sharing that big moment with him would have been awesome but as we all know we aren’t together right now. As I mentioned in my previous post I am trying to avoid wishing we would get back together because I feel instead of that happening soon, it is taking more and more time (further and further). If he wants to be part of my life as my boyfriend again, he can give me the surprise and all whenever that is (soon enough cuz I’m not waiting for decades) or even that happens. I will be polity which is not the same than “showing how I feel” I am an educated person…that’s how I was raised. If HE or anyone wonders how I feel about them, they better ask because I am friendly and polite that my personality and does not exactly shows how I may feel once again. Plain and simple. If we decide we wanna go back together we will discuss it. If not and we end up being legit friends he already know how things will go from them since last year I made that very VERY clear. I try to be as honest as I possibly can because that’s what I want and expect from people specially the ones I truly care. Destiny is nothing without action so we shall see how thing progress and what the outcome will be.

People may complain about how I see and share my graduation. For some it is weird I don’t invite people like friends and stuff. Sorry but my graduation is very important, private and something I want to keep for me and just share with certain very selective people. This doesn’t mean I don’t care about my other friends and close friends! I care about them but I know if you care you will get it and we can celebrate in other days for sure… So this time, I will share it with my dad, my uncle who is like my second that and I love dearly, the uncle and aunt that I live with (yes that’s why they are going). I would love to Alejandra to attend but she could come so L She owes me and better be for the next big celebration in my life lol.

I can’t wait… Time to see the last details and enjoy it as much as I can because I deserve it. I dedicate my graduation-degree to the ones who have believed in me since day one, the ones who care what’s on my mind, heart and soul.  Last but no less important I dedicate this one to my family, closest friends , and  my mother Graciela Trabucco and my grandfather Mario Trabucco Tamiz Cuz I know they wanted with all their hearts to be there but God had other plans ... still I’m sure they will be there in the first line next to me.

Even though it’s only the first couple of week, as you can “Read” its been intense… I wonder what’s next. Hopefully what I truly want with all my heart happens… fingers crossed and even if it doesn’t I will make the best of it… J

Giving Up Or Not Giving Up

This year has been full of emotions in all aspects of my life that I really didn't see happening. This year is so different from last one ( I know all are but it is drastically different). Once again I am single, we both made mistake that lead to that. I lost my mother. But the one good thing is that I am closer to my family, I have been improving myself, and I got my bachelors.
After so many things, feelings , and thoughts going through my head in the last months particularly in the last couple of days I realize that when we want and desire something so much it may not end up happening. It contradicts what people say, right? In my personal experience; as much as I want something to happen whether is material or romantically, it seems to get further and further. It is not a secret I want to go back with my ex. To be honest now ( may 9th) I see it almost IMPOSSIBLE not because I stop loving him or anything like that but I don't know I just don't see it happening. It may, it may not....God and HIM only knows... I don't have a crystal ball to actually predict the future even though it will be epic & awesome. I wont deny it hurts like hell but I will just stop wishing it....I guess if it ends up happening, I will just let destiny and him surprise me cuz when it comes to me i will put everything on a box for now on paused.
It breaks my heart I lost two people I love the most in less than two months ( in between- the ex and my mom). Sometimes I wonder if maybe my destiny is to be alone.. no I am not a emo or  bitter - negative about my life. However, things and situations make me feel like it. Its hard to admit is not on my hands even though I've tried everything I could, maybe not enough but at least I sincerely did so I have no regrets.
I say good bye for now because I have no sign to think and do otherwise. I will be focusing on my life and as I said before if it happens it will be awesome and I will address the situation the best I can in that moment ... whenever that is or if it even happens....
About my mom, now I get that it was the best for her and if I love her, I have to be happy because she is not suffering anymore. It will always affect me but now I can talk about it because it is part of my story and who I am as a person. I will try to  make her proud whereever she is.
I am very happy now I am more expressive. I feel more comfortable saying whats on my mind and heart whether or not people agree or like it. I will keep improving because we never stop learning and growing which is good. Gotta focus in my short term goals since the long term still need some planning to do. I know great things are about to come.
Even though my life may not be perfect and anyone who read this post may thing I am complaining....well maybe I am to a certain point. Yet I like my life because for better or for worst it made me the person I am now. Hopefully things fall into place and somehow close to what I would like it but if not I will deal with the outcome the best I can as always...

What I am looking for ...

Keep In Mind

Suelta Mi Mano [By S.B]

No, no es necesario que lo entienda, por que nunca le ha servido la razón al corazón, el corazón no piensa… No mi vida, ¿para qué te esfuerzas? no me tienes que explicar, siempre tu libertad, por mucho que eso duela

Y si, entiendo que quieres hablar, que a veces necesitas saber de mi pero no sé si quiera saber de ti,
y vivir así, seguir así… pensando en ti

Suelta mi mano ya por favor entiende que me tengo que ir, si ya no sientes més este amor no tengo nada més que decir. No digas nada ya por favor, te entiendo, pero entiéndeme a mi. Cada palabra aunmenta el dolor y una lágrima quiere salir

Y por favor no me detengas, siempre encuentro la manera de seguir y de vivir aunque ahora no lo tenga. Y no mi vida, no vale la pena para que quieres llamar si el que era yo, ya no voy a estar
esta es la ultima escena…

Things U May Not Know About Me [Part I]

• When I'm mad ( no matter what level) I'm quiet. If you try to talk to me I will ask for some space-time out. If you push me I will warn you I will say something mean ... push one more time, you will hear it lol
• I like to drink yes BUT my top is 4 drinks... I don't like to get drunk. I know my limits but I wont try to get any closer unless there is a BIG reason. 
• I HATE CHEATERS, LIARS ... people who seriously don't know the meaning of the word "LOYALTY"
•  I may act cold but I'm very sensitive and caring
• I have a tattoo of my mom's lips and signature
• My dreams are to be a good professional and awesome mother :)
• Only one person made me wake up and really think I can get married and start a family ( before I couldn't even picture it)
• I don't say "I Love You" easily unless I'm 200% sure of it..
• The walls on my room are somewhat covered with some of my drawings
• I love guns but I get nervous shooting.
• I like cleaning specially before I need to do something so I can focus or as a stress release type of thing [ yeah I am weird like that]
• Two out of my four exs thought about marrying me or live with me.
• Only 5 of the closet people in my life *not blood related* have seen me cried. If you are one of them .. you're lucky which mean I FREAKING TRUST you to see me that vulnerable.
• I have only one best girl- friend . We've been friends for 10 years so far.
• I give many chances to people  sometimes even more than they deserve.
• I forgave someone who was not loyal to me once .. NEVER AGAIN.
• I kinda know the type of engagement ring I want  and kinda ( not really) have the idea of the weeding dress I want... hey for a girl this is weird.. most women know all details lmao 
• I love long and tight hugs from the people I love the most
• Death made me realize that from now on I'm not gonna take anything less than what I deserve in all relationship I have : family, friends, romantically, and professionally.
• Most of the time the hardest things you will go through happens all at once ( last year august - September) but that when you realize you are stronger than what you and anyone else thinks.
• The past comes back for many reasons
• It was meant to be
• Test
• Grief - answer questions
• I enjoy time alone as much as I enjoy spending time with my love ones
• My friends think I was supposed to be a doctor and psychologist instead of an economist

New Me :)

Just DONT!

If you have feelings.. say it
If you are confuse.... have a convo about it
If your feelings are GONE ... SAY IT in a polite way -.-
Don't get anyone all excited or lead them on.. hey karma is a BITCH and when you least expect it, she will smack you right on the face and when it hurts the most
Have doubts about something ask.. dont answer yourself because 90 % of the time you will be wrong ven if you "intuition" is the best one in the world.
As you want soeone to be honest - faithful-loyal.. start by doing it
Dont ask or expect things from people that you don't give.
Wanna be an AssH@le or bitch, dont complain when the other person is extremely rude.
Wanna leave without explanation, dont expect a welcome party when you come back

Put the card on the table. Be straight forward plain and simple if the other person is okay with it.. go for it if not respect it because he/she has the right to as you do.

Not Over You [By S.E]

Dreams, that's where I have to go To see your beautiful face anymore I stare at a picture of you and listen to the radio Hope, hope there's a conversation We both admit we had it good But until then it's alienation, I know That much is understood And I realize

If you ask me how I'm doing I would say I'm doing just fine I would lie and say that you're not on my mind
But I go out and I sit down at a table set for two And finally I'm forced to face the truth, No matter what I say I'm not over you

Damn, damn boy, you do it well And I thought you were innocent Took this heart and put it through hell
But still you're magnificent I, I'm a boomerang, doesn't matter how you throw me I turn around and I'm back in the game Even better than the old me But I'm not even close without you

And if I had the chance to renew You know there isn't a thing I wouldn't do I could get back on the right track But only if you'd be convinced So until then...

3 Main Rules

People, to be more clear men, always complain about women expectation. Well they may be right sometimes because most women want to have a romantic comedy love story. However, what women really want is a man  who will respect her in every way,will be faithful since the start, and will not be afraid to show how he feels about her in every way he can... is it that complicated? I don't think so...So men out there just those 3 things will get you far in the life - of a real woman. If you love her just do that... if she is THE ONE for you, she will appreciate it beyond your expectations